. Having a think... Price limbo How low can I go? . A cheap a2 canvas is 6 to 10 pounds Decent safe Postage is probably for an A2 is probably about another 10. If I pay other materials out of pocket, I could probably sell an a2 Inc uk postage for as low as £20. I won't make any money but I will get to keep replacing supplies used so I can keep working and improving. And it will piss off the posh self entitled, up their own arses, snobby art set lot off! Which is always a nice feeling. Being spiteful is fun. . Plus photo prints of the paintings will extend the money made from originals. . Ok, so based on this I'll use the following future formular. . A6 or smaler INC UK postage £3 for original Photos £2 each or 3x for £5 . A5 or smallerINC UK postage 5 £ for original Photos £3 each or 2x for £5 . A3 INC UK postage 15 £ for original Photos £10. (I might make a few pounds loss on posted photos this size. But screw it, i need to loose weight anyway, i can miss the odd meal. This wi...

! Yeh... <sarcastic snigger> Because I am Just absolutely totally known for my balanced, Mature, Reasonable, non-eXtreme, Normal, behavior!!! - 🙂 LOL! 🙂 <comically exaggerated facepalm> NOT!!! . THAT IS WHY I HAVE SUCH A HUGE SET OF SUPER STRICT PERSONAL RULES! . I have rules about asking people out on dates, I have rules for dating. I have rules about breaking up. I have rules for physical conflicts. I have rules for being ethical. I have rules for being evil. I have rules for mercy. I have rules for ruthlessness. I have rules about the rules. And - Rules about what exceptions exist to those rules. And - What rules about what the exceptions are - To those exceptions! . These rules are divorced from human norms. They do not care about what is "legal". AND They ignore all personal sacrifices of me, my friends myself, my family, my happiness, my well-being, and everything, else!  . I cannot be threatened from them - I will always choose death.  I cannot be bribed ...

. Can we please maybe stop telling men that suicide is "wrong" and let us have the right to our own bodies and be able to choose to end our misery if we want! . If you, yourself, knew that no one would ever love you again for the rest of your life? - Do you really think "therapy" will somehow make such a life worth living? ? . You Only, selfishly, want us lonely men to 'Live' so you can better define your own happiness! . Me and other men know we can not ever be loved again, So have the decency to Just let men like me die! FFS! Stop being selfish! Our death is not going to stop your happiness - It just allows us to escape our torment. - Don't force us to suffer! Let us GO! !

. The value of 'It'. By Ross E F Lombardi. . Carrying your pain alone won't make you stronger... ... but it will spare others, - you selfishly, - Inflicting yourself on their already overburdened lives. . Your emotional debts are not others to carry, - Or pay for you. The pain is Yours. . It is the only thing that is Really Yours. It's the one thing that won't abandon You, Or that can Never Ever be stolen from You, against Your will. Your pain is the one consistant constant, - In your life, - That You can always rely on being there. . Some say "Let go of your pain and heal" - That idea is terrifying! I'm not sure who I am, - Who I would be, - Without that pain. Without the pain? Is there anything else left of me remaining? What if 'pain' is all that I am? What if without it? - I am left with nothing? What if without it? - I Am Nothing? . Pain. It won't make you stronger, . But it is a vital landmark in an otherwise confusing and frightenin...

 . . . . ' . . Of course... ...IF... You happen to take these images and swap the name "Ross Lombardi" for some other famous person's name... And swap the bottom of the shoe graphic with some other famous person's photo and/or name. Then I have no way of stopping you at all... ...Just saying... . . . . . . Bellow: The original photos of my art that I used to make the cartoon.  If you happen to want access to this source photo... . .

. I have been having serious doubts about my "life path" for quite a while now. The current path of = (becoming a known as a writer and artist, creative, fall in love again and work towards some happy ever after.) - I am not sure this is the path I should be on. It almost seems like a just a slightly "cooler" version of the same bog-standard career and relationship path that everyone else is on. But under the bright packaging, the contents are exactly the same as a career in accountancy, or  management or any other professional wheel. It is just yet more chasing of money, reputation and status under a different mask. With a search for love also being just the private life equivalent of exactly the same thing. - I am kinda hoping for a random sign that I am using my life the right way. - Basically, if I don't get a major sign or breakthrough by the end of April, then I feel I need to ask myself some serious questions about personal purpose and meaning. - I'm...

. NOT ALL MEN?? . The problem is that to my mind, It really IS ALL men. Including Me! And short of self-mutilation: My options are very limited! (But I am so terrified of becoming like my genetic wife-beating father that in my darkest moments it has still crossed my mind as a potential option! Better castrated than a monster!) The thing All of Us Men have crawling at the back of our heads causes me nightmares, suicidal depression, self-loathing, and dangerously homicidal thoughts when some Tate-worshipping arse talks about being an "alpha male", Despite being male I understand why the #Killallmen hashtag exists! And even though I do not support that hashtag, I have seen more than enough in my life, far too much, from being a frightened toddler onwards, to know that the men haters have a Very valid point! .

. Ladies! Past your 30s it is Just as insane to want an unscarred heart, 'emotional virgin' undamaged man. As it is for an incel to "demand" a physical virgin woman! At a certain age... ...it is not only 'not gonna happen', But it also - 'shouldn't happen' - even if it could! Men with broken hearts are Not despoiled damaged goods! A man does Not need to be in "first ever love" with you,  For it to still be real love! . You do not have to "Be his first love" . Our past hurt does not diminish our future feelings for someone new! .