. YOU SHOULD ONLY BE WITH SOMEONE WHO FEELS LUCKY TO HAVE YOU... . ...for me... ...it is never gonna happen... ...it has never happened.... for me.... ever.... ...even back when i was married no one ever said to my ex-wife,  "you are lucky to have ... him " ... it was always  "you are lucky to have Her! " (...even my own mother and family always said that to me, repeatedly) ...i have Never been valued that way... ...and now i realize that i Never, ever, will... . ...i now know.. ...for sure... ..i have finally learned... ...that i can never be loved... .

. WIP . The Empty Heart Fuel Tank. By Ross E F Lombardi . When you had lots of bad memories. . Then you meet someone. . Then together You build 30 years of some good memories. . Memories that gave you strength. . Then you get dumped. . All those good memories are now ruined and become sad memories. . Because it becomes obvious that none of those shared experiences meant anything to them. . And now you have no good memories anymore. . Where can you now get your strength from?!! . What's left? .

  . . My List TOP 5 As of 12/Oct/2024 . 1 the devil (small ‘d’ on purpose out of intentional disrespect) Because duh! He’s evil! . 2 me, myself and I, (small ‘m’ on purpose out of intentional disrespect) For being a failure and underachieving both professionally and ethically my entire life. . 3 god (small ‘g’ on purpose out of intentional disrespect) “Oi! god! – Get your fat lazy arse off your fucking golden throne and Actually Fucking Do something!” . 4 My genetic father (NOT my Dad Mr Lombrdi whom I love – but by my GENETIC father Mr E.M) Thanks for the lifetime of nightmares and mental illness… . 5 My Ex-Wife Because like an engine - Hate is empowering and motivates you, and anger gets shit done. - While crying is crippling, paralysing, disabling and demotivates you. . My List The TOP 5 sentient beings that I actively HATE most As of 12/Oct/2024 .

EEK! Re: My attempted George Micheal FAITH Parody Well, the number of hits in the first hour wise - It is a total flop! - <facepalm> I have rarely seen just low first-hour number hits! - OUCH! Even the TikTok is in the low 70s! And that usually hits nearly 200 in the first 40 mins! - So, in those terms, it has totally tanked! LOL! DAM! I am not too bothered, Everyone Is allowed the occasional stinker!

  RE: Frank Sinatra Vs Dean Martin: I always felt that Dean Martin “Dino,” had by far the truly superior singing voice out of the two. And in a similar vein - (When NOT singing comedy songs) - Bob Hope had a much better voice than Bing Crosby!

 . As a future career idea I'd like to be the 'master ' of teasing and 'baiting' people! . Mmmm!? . I wonder what my job title would be? . - "Baiter-Master?" Perhaps? .

  The Tent only stands because ropes & poles all pull in different directions There is NO 1 single absolute spiritual truth!

. …In My Art. - What I Now Live 4 By Ross E F Lombardi . If I were an accountant. Fully qualified and charted. I would work from home for under minimum wage per hour. To devalue the work of all the other accountants. To piss on their lives and their private schools, mortgages, and happier lives than mine. . If I were a lawyer. A good one from Harvard Law. I would work from home for under minimum wage per hour. To devalue the work of all the other Lawyers. Still living in a bedsit and charging so little for my skills - That the government would still have to subsidise my meagre lifestyle. Better subsidising me, giving legal advice to others, for next to nothing, That subsidising landmines that blow the legs off innocent children in showers of blood and horror. . If I were a doctor. With my MD and knowledge. I would work from home for under minimum wage per hour. To force down the value of all other health care. To piss on the lives of posh doctors and their love of money, - Their hope