. AGAIN.  A song.  By Ross Lombardi . I feel the pain Shuffling under my skin I want to know Were you end and I begin . And I know  This is so Pathetic that I can't win I feel the death  Of a good part of me inside . . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . . I feel the need  Creeping in my heart again I want to know And end to this beating pain . And I know This is so Creepy of me again . I feel the pain  Shuffling under my skin . . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . . Feel the want Of hearing your voice again I want to smell The taste of your hair again . And I know This is so SO - Wrong of me to feel . I feel the need. Creeping in my heart again . . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice again . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice again . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice again . . I feel the death 

! The Animus and the Yang. By Ross E F Lombardi . (a straight man) . I am a straight man who has a problem with all other straight men. I am not a bigot as such, Or maybe I am, I am not totally sure… …But there is definitely a bias against us all. We are a needed poison but never the cure. . If someone calls me a “Good Man” It feels like an oxymoron. The male energy is a slaughtering weapon, A bloody knife. Or Gun, The male energy is just yet another murdered wife. . If they call me “Good” It feels like an impossible lie! The male energy or Yang is only a hot white flame, A bright shining darkness in me that makes me sad. A burning destruction, And nothing but bad. . Every straight man here has dreamt and is dreaming even as I speak. Of harming another. -….And I as stand here reporting this, - Probably of harming me. Every straight man here not only knows what I say is true. But is eager to prove it. Because that is what we are. Harming others is what we do. . If they call me a “Man” I

. Spammed This Ad on someone else paid space. (as I often do) The WORST bit is I committed a gross misogynistic moral crime against an ex. And this 'person' is focused instead on how impropriate leaping on the back of her paid Ad is?! . I may be a horrible person but at least I own it. . Amanda Heath's values on the other hand are just totally fucked up! . So much for "Sisterhood" !! . . . . .

. Title: "Young Woman With Glass Of Wine" . Size A3 . First created - Back When I was in my 20s. This old picture of mine was once something very special to me. Now it is just another product to sell. - To anyone with 20 pounds (plus 5 pounds post and packing) (NOTE: Physical purchase does not include digital reproduction rights.) The picture is of my now ex-wife back when she was Susan Chapman (now Susan Lombardi). She posed for it before we were married. . I openly admit that this is an act of childish spite. - and I simply feel far too crushed and utterly defeated to care. . "Sometimes you fight the darkness…" <shrug> “…Sometimes the darkness wins…” "…Sometimes you let the darkness win…." “…And sometimes you give the darkness a big hug and welcome it as an old friend”. . . I crossed a line today . To destroy a part of me that was once "good" . And I'm feeling surprisingly ok about it. . .

. Dumb human logic . Person A: "I like men because they make me feel safe and protected" . Me: "Safe and protected from what?" "Exactly?" . Person A: "Harm....!" . Me: "Like what?" . Person A "I dunno...!" . Me: "You mean other men...?" . Person A "Kinda - ish...." . Me: "So the harm you want to feel 'protected and safe' from is largely from other male-type perceived threats?!" . Person A: "Errrrrr????" . ME: "But you should not have to live in a world where you ever need to feel 'Safe and Protected'!" "That should just be a given!" .

! I DO NOT BELONG ANYWHERE! ! NEVER HAVE! ! I SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE FEELING "LOST" AND "HOMESICK" ! !

. The very people who say "people don't want to work anymore" Are creating the types of work environments that "stop people from wanting to work anymore" . The people complaining about the lack of workers complain, While writing their own self-filling prophecy. - In short - Too many "bosses" are fucking idiots! - Worker loyalty is actually surprisingly cheap. - Just, Don't be a dick! .