. INTERNATIONAL MENS DAY  EVERY YEAR! NOV 19th . But seriously... LOL!  Why do I even need a mens day! I'm not disenfranchised purely based on my gender! I don't have less money because of my gender! I'm not killed because of my gender! . What's the fucks next!? International perfectly healthy day? International straight persons day?  International white person day? International billionaires day? International 'I have less problems than you' day??! . God dam! International mens day is such bullshit! - THAT is why hardly anyone cares about it. Because it doesn't matter! We don't need it! It's stupidly on a stick! .

Men don't define women Women don't define women Men don't define men Women don't define men No one defines Anyone. . As soon as you look to others to define who you are... ...you loose who you are! . Only You should define You! . And your only duty  (without harming or imposing your will on others)  Is to be YOU as Hard as You can!  . You are only ever your actual deeds. You are only what you really Do. Not what you or others merely say you are or call you.  . Actions are everything. Known or unknown  Witnessed or in private. Your deeds, seen or unseen  define you  Mere words and labels mean nothing. You can't control the world But you can choose your own actions.  It's better to burn alive free and screaming - - than submit to others as their puppet.  . No one, no being, no gang, no government, no 'rag on a stick',  is worthy of You bowing or kneeling to! . Be your own deity. Worshiping who You are! So you can better love the entire wor...

. Creativity is a gift . It was never meant to make money It is bestowed upon some  to help others .

. Seven. By Ross e f Lombardi . 60 seconds in "I don't really want to talk." "I'm ok" "I don't want to talk about it" "Honestly" (I am not ok) . Two moments on "I'll just cover the basics." "But not burden you." "As I don't matter." "I never did matter... ...I never could matter.... ... and matter, I never will." . Three and uncorking. "This!" "THIS!" And "This!" I'm Spewing Words "That!" "THAT!" And "that!" For I am 'This' needy, attention greedy, over-bearing, over-sharing twat. . Halfway between heaven and hell now and still falling. Self-hate speech calling. Tearless crying. Dried eyed yet bawling. . Five up. Ok I'm breathing calmer now. I feel embarrassed. But you comfort me with constant "oks, "it's fine" ...and despite myself I feel 'valued'. I hate myself A bit less now. Thanks...

! YES, Men ARE trash! <shrug> - Just look at the violent crime stats in allmost every country! - The Maths Proves that we as a gender, Are Trash! . Data from sources like the UNODC Global Study on Homicide and U.S. FBI Uniform Crime Reports confirm men perpetrate 80-95% of violent offenses worldwide, including 88% of robberies and 99% of rapes. .

Trying out a new recipe idea on wendsday. I'm taking a normal soda bread recipe But replacing some of the flour with ground almonds Useing strong wholemeal in the rest of the flour And adding raisins and dry salted peanuts to the mix . I might also make the dough into eight smaller buns instead of four And put either jam or crunchy peanut butter as a filling in the centre. . The idea is to create a sort of "travel bite" that I can nibble while sketching all day. Something healthier and more filling than a flapjack that won't fall apart and has enough healthy calories to keep me going a whole day without having to use any pricey shops. . It doesn't have to taste all that good It just has be edible enough and save me money while I'm out all day sketching And not make a mess in my sketch bag by falling apart when knocked around during walking. I'm aiming for structural integrity and nutrition over taste. A sort of cheap all weather travel ration.

  . TO BE CRYSTAL CLEAR: The Male Loneliness Epidemic Is MENs FAULT for acting like evil arseholes Not Woman’s fault for not wanting to be threatened, beaten and killed! . If you want to be angry at anyone about it Be angry at all the other men that caused your problem! . .

Ok It turns out that Vanity Seizing by clothes manufactures IS A THING! And for bullshit reasons it does NOT break any consumer laws So there is me being so proud of myself getting my waste measure down and bragging Only to find out that I have not actually achieved anything Because fucking big money is allowed to lie to us all, again! I hate this modern world SO much! Big Business are all just total arse holes . . FUCK! That means that If I ignore clothes sizes And go by the NHS tape measure guide I am actually still at a 48” waste!. No Wonder I can’t get a date! I’ll never get thin enough to be good looking! It can Not be done! SHIT! I’m stuck being fucking ugly forever! This changes everything! What the hell am I supposed to do now!?! . . "A 48-inch waist exceeds NICE health recommendations—aiming for less than half one's height"  Well as soon As my ugly arse can die from heart disease and diebetes the better  No point being this ugly and still breathing .

. A truly broken heart is absolutely devastating . So, ...If you want revenge then your heart was never truly broken. If you want revenge then you never really loved them at all. . For if your heart is truly broken. Survival is already more than hard enough... . So do that Just try and survive. .

. Them: "Ross, Why are do you unercharge for your art?" "Why is your stuff so cheap?" . Me: "Spite" "It is why I sell my art for stupid cheap prices now." "some of them taking days of work" "But as I cant win" "Ill try and tank the local art markets value" .

. If people look at the things I say about my ex - and mistake it for misogyny - it's not - This is not misogyny because I am a man hurt by a woman I hate the individual - Not the gender. This has nothing to do with me being 'a man' or her 'a woman' THIS level of self harming spite is my families specialty from my moms side. This is: "don't piss off a member of the fortune family" This is Not me acting like a:   "macho arse hole bloke" This is me being the child of Miss Jackie Fortune I'd be just as self destructive, Petty, and spiteful to Anyone to hurt me this much. I don't have to win Winning never matters My mums family side taught me, "loose on purpose if you must - as long as it hurts 'em as much as you can." . Me being 'like this' is a whole family trait, not a gender one! . I  am willing to die without defending myself IF it sends my attacker to prison and ruins their life. . I will hapily loose both m...