! I gave myself a personal deadline of midnight on the 10th of December to see if the dream of being a paid creative was still worth chasing... OR If I should chop that dream into small pieces with a sharp reality axe? And give up? ! I am 48, IF I were ever going to "Make it" I'd have done it by now... ? So far, It is not looking good! :( Despite a last desperate push... ...It is not looking good at all! ! . .