Personal Smelly Bog Log : 5th Jan 2024

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Personal Smelly Bog Log :

5th Jan 2024

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I became a bit reclusive after the Southfield Pub Middlesbrough told me to leave.

This happened before Christmas when I was hoping to do some spoken word stuff at an open mic night.

Apparently, Some female member of staff (no idea who) said I "made them uncomfortable" at the last place she worked.

That deeply upset me because it paints me as someone I am not.

That is Not the sort of person I am.

- So, it is either a case of mistaken identity or an act of spite.

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So that made me spiral and lose social confidence.

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It is pretty much the worst thing/insult you can say to me.

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The worst part is that I spent a good few days filled with self-doubt - because that type of person needs to be "executed" and not tolerated to exist.

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I find "proportional responses" to men like that, a struggle to maintain.

And I am harder on myself than anyone else.

So,

If “I” = “Being like that”.

The math result is not hard.

In short,

That bullshit accusation could, potentially, have killed me.

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Between a mistake and spite. I suspect Spite is far more likely!

Because of my online views.

Views like, for example.

“I hate god”

“Cancel culture is Anti Democracy and wrong”.

And

“It is ok to harm a Nazi and any bigot”.

Because if death threats won't work,

Then short of murdering me, what else have my critics got?

All they can do instead is undermine me with fibs.

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But some good came of it.

It made me write and perform the poem "Jam Jar".

And that work would not have been created without that incident.



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