I have been having serious doubts -

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I have been having serious doubts about my "life path" for quite a while now.
The current path of = (becoming a known as a writer and artist, creative, fall in love again and work towards some happy ever after.)
- I am not sure this is the path I should be on.
It almost seems like a just a slightly "cooler" version of the same bog-standard career and relationship path that everyone else is on.
But under the bright packaging, the contents are exactly the same as a career in accountancy, or management or any other professional wheel.
It is just yet more chasing of money, reputation and status under a different mask.
With a search for love also being just the private life equivalent of exactly the same thing.

- I am kinda hoping for a random sign that I am using my life the right way.
- Basically, if I don't get a major sign or breakthrough by the end of April, then I feel I need to ask myself some serious questions about personal purpose and meaning.
- I'm not saying that I am going to join some religion or become a Buddhist as such.
But I am saying that I should at least have a real think about what I want and how to achieve it.
And by that I mean What I really Need,
Not what I am supposed to merely Want.