TIME TO LET GO AND FLY?!

TIME TO LET GO AND FLY?!

I turned off my dating apps
I was going to wait until my eHarmony sub ended in July 2026, As I'm still stuck paying for that garbage, I thought,
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"Well, if I'm stuck paying for it - then I might as well use it"
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- but now I'm thinking I instead,
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"Screw it. Let them keep Their money. Let the money be wasted. I am done. I just want to quit."
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The butterfly can no longer eat leaves like it used to as a caterpillar.
It can still like leaves,
It can miss eating leaves.
It can wish to be a caterpillar again as much as it wants - but it still ain't gonna happen - it will still stay a butterfly.
The butterfly has to accept that the eating leaves life phase is over.
It will never eat leaves again!
It must learn to let go and now embrace being a butterfly and what that means, both good and bad.
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Just as a butterfly, I also need to embrace my new life phase and forever let go of my old life phase.

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Problem:
Hope hurts.
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Solution:
Stop hoping.
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No more leaves.
Just nectar.
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No more wanting,
Just acceptance.
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No more crawling.
Just flight, fluttering and a different type of life.
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No more romantic love.
Just other 'higher' things.
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This includes giving up Porn and Masturbation.

Holding on to the past and still wanting what I can never have again (romantic intimacy or romantic love) is just painful and pointless.

If a butterfly can no longer eat leaves, ever again...

...Then why should it keep torturing itself with a longing and a wanting for leaves?

The butterfly is an entirely different creature now!

It is better for the butterfly to let go,

Not just 'say it', but REALLY let go!

And properly commit to giving up its pointless, silly, outdated desire for leaves - It can longer have!

Again, Just as a butterfly, I too need to embrace my new life phase and forever let go of that old life phase.

If I can no longer love and feel as I once did for someone, - And for them to feel the same for me in return, ever again...

...Then why should it keep torturing itself with a longing and a wanting for a real, mutual, true love romantic relationship?

I will always still like woman,
I can miss that kind of romance.
I can wish to be a suitable male match again as much as I want - but it still ain't gonna magically happen - I will still stay as 'Me'.

Wishes are just wishes - nothing more. - In reality, they have no magical power!
I have to accept that my past 'love-life', - life phase is now over.

I am an entirely different creature now!

I am simply not compatible with anyone anymore...

It is better for Me to simply let go,

Not just 'say it', but REALLY let go!

And properly commit to giving up its pointless, silly, outdated desire for Love, Sex and Romance - That I can no longer have!

Whether I am cowardly quitting!

Whether I am growing and evolving!...

...Or perhaps BOTH?

...Is left entirely to your personal perspective.

A personal perspective polluted by your own life baggage that has nothing at all to do with me and my experiences.

All I do know is that how I am at the moment and what I want now is not working for me,

My old wants, desires, and wishes are "no longer suitable for purpose"

So I need to either change who and what I am - Or stay miserable for the rest of my life...

...So,

I am taking my personal power back,

I am abandoning old wants, desires, and wishes that controlled my life.

I am choosing to change.

Instead of staying just yet another lonely, sexually frustrated man - In a world already crammed full of weak-willed, lonely, owned by their desires and ego, sexually frustrated men,

I choose to become "something else".

Your negative reactions to this...

...Are Not my problem!

Additional:
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I am getting a load of cheap metallic effect plastic rings delivered tomorrow,
I'm going to wear one of them on my wedding finger each time I go out.
I won't directly lie, IF I am ever asked, if I am single...
...Instead...
... I'll just reply in some creative, misleading way to imply that I am Not single.
Just pointing at the fake wedding ring and smiling would probably be more than enough.
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I just want to dance,
Sing karaoke,
"Do my thing..."
And be left the hell alone.
I have nothing to prove to any strangers I don't know or respect.
I don't want the added hassle of their needy little shitty insecurities.
"I'm only here to dance to Taylor Swift - not flirt with your lass!"
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I quit all that crap.
I am no longer "romantically available"
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Additional ON 2:

Ok,
I admit, There is a tiny super small window loophole in my new vow....
Technically, my new pact with the universe does not lock down until the 19th of July 2026.
But between the fake wedding ring.
Looking extra scruffy
- and not asking out anyone.
It is pretty much only a technicality.
If some woman asked me out before the 19th of July 2026 then I might still feel duty and honour bound (if I like the woman enough) to give the universe a final shot.
But women didn't ask me out when I tried to look good and didn't wear a fake wedding ring.
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So THAT is not gonna happen!
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THAT (getting asked out and that leading to a romance) is so hilariously, ridiculously, incredibly unlikely to happen that it Only counts as a Technicality.
An army of lime green singing ("Another One Bites The Dust" by Queen - but in formal Latin) - flying pigs, wearing monocles and purple velvet top hats and tin foil ballet tutu's, shooting out of my fat smelly arse hole are a billion times more likely than that!
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So, I feel it's a pretty dam solid bet that the 'lock-in' won't change or be stopped between now and the vow deadline.
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It is pretty much a forever-done deal.
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What IS far more likely is that some woman will flirt with me and ask me out - AFTER the deadline,
But not because they like me.
But instead, because they feel they need to make some point about either the weak-willed nature of men in general - or a point that I as an individual, specifically, is just all talk and has no real substance.
If someone tries that crap - A ) they will fail and B ) it proves exactly why I was right to 'opt out' in the first place!
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