. I do know god exists, - And "it" is annoying! It is not really "faith", Its knowledge . And as knowledge denies "faith"... I feel overly familiar with "it". . So, It is more of an "over-familiarity invites contempt" situation, rather than a "belief" situation. . - god is like the postman or an annoying traffic warden, just a 'fact of life' to me. - that's why I use a small 'g', . I have enough familiarity with god to feel nothing but contempt for god, . I can't prove it, of course. But I don't need to. That bullshit is your ego-driven issue, not mine. So, you go deal with your own annoying shit. . With god buzzing around me like a constantly irritating, nasty biting, itchy stinging, all-powerful yet spiteful, ghostly spirit insect. I have my own annoying shit to deal with. . There is no way I'm going to kneel to the golden throne and ask anything of that shitty rat bastard or any of his glowy ...

. Non-secular monk? Should I consider the lifestyle of a non-secular gnostic monk? . I already eat mostly beans, brown rice and lentils - unless I'm cooking for others. I already don't eat much meat, so going full vegetarian might be fairly easy. I already spend a lot of time alone. I already barely touch alcohol. I already read a lot and do a lot of meditative calisthenic-style exercises. I already have a deep interest in helping both the community and the world. I already see anger and rage as bad things and care passionately about promoting world peace and universal acceptance. I already have a growing hatred of money and wealth and how it owns both me and how it corrupts this world, and all it touches. I already have a disdain for ego and boastful pride in both myself and others. And I already have a strong sense of right and wrong (compared to most adults who seem to have lost that same sense of righteousness that they had at under 18. - Life seems to have beaten it out of...