A reason to be creative - anyway - to Push anyway - no matter what! - . There are higher roads than that of 'my ego' to take. Sunshine blown up my ass is lovely - but it is the wrong reason to do anything. The reason should be instead, Because of that unrelenting fire in my blood. (The thing that denies me any rest or peace) Because that unrelenting fire in my blood, demands it of my spirit, body, and soul. I should do it because I need to. I should do it because, in essence, I have no choice! .

. I am going to an art gallery thing this afternoon, But I do not want to. . I am going to a karaoke thing in Middlesbrough Town tonight, But I do not want to. . I will talk to people tonight But I do not want to. . What I want to do is... Hide, Hide in bed and pretend the world does not exist. Hide in the blankets - and in sadness - and in myself. But I will not! . I will make myself eat, Make myself shower, Make myself shave, Make myself go out, . I do not want to try and be charming. But I will. . I do not want to try and be friendly. But I will. . I do not want to try and 'flirt' and 'put myself out there' But I will. . I will force myself to live and get a life, Whether I want to or not. . No one is going to give me a "new life" There is no "new life" Fairy godmother, that just hands "new lives" out. I have to go out and make a "new life" from scratch. Or it simply will not happen. . So, despite what I want to do I am going

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. Will I give up my rage? "NO!" "Yes", There ARE just two choices! Hate or tears. . Hating is empowering! Crying makes You a victim! . "No", there are no nuances! "No", there is no acceptance! There is just energy, entropy, loss and eventual death. . Life IS pain, anyone who tries to tell you otherwise is trying to sell you something. . And my pain is the One thing that is truly mine, The One thing that no one can ever steal from me, take from me or that will ever leave me. It is a constant in a world where no one can be truly trusted, and everyone will eventually abandon or betray you. I can believe in hate more than anything or anyone else. So, "NO" I will Not be giving it up for a mere 'pat on the back', a 'hug' and some 'trite advice'. . My hate is MINE! All mine! Mine alone Forever. .

. I hate my Ex. I hate Her Soooo very, Very, VERY much!!!!!! . Why Should You Hate Your EX? Because when in pain... Hating an 'Ex' is empowering! While Crying for Them just makes You a victim! .

! IF WOMEN FIND DANGEROUS MEN "HOT" ! Then I quit! - If I have to be ANYTHING like my violent genetic dad - Then I'd rather die alone! - You fucking "normal" human beings make me sick and are not worth hanging around with.... I REFUSE TO BE DANGEROUS! - I Hate you all SOOOO much! (and I fucking hate for god creating all of us shitty humans this way too!) - SCREW BEING A "Good Man" Id rather be a half-decent "Real Human" instead! . Violent people only make you 'the exception' - ...until they don't! . Violence is not right or wrong/good or bad / AND it is NOT glamorous! - it is just is! .- YOU stupid STUPID idiots don't know what real violence IS! Or what you are really wishing for! You Silly! Silly Morons! ! . ! I hate my rage, Hate my violence It calls to me, Hate that I crave to harm others .

. WHY I WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY CANCER SCREENING OR BOTHERING TO SEE A DOCTOR FOR ANY CHECKUPS! . Why would I? Why? To live longer?  HA! I do not enjoy living anyway! - bring the death on! - Seriously? I am 52 years old with no assets, un-employable due to mental illness, living on benefits, Disposable, Ugly inside both and out, Un-dateable, Unlovable and with nothing to offer any woman anyway, With NO future other than loneliness, food banks and counting pennies for the occasional coffee out as a treat. - So, explain to me, IF you can, Why the hell would I ever want to live longer!? I just want to die and meet god - So, I can headbutt the smug bastard in the face and tell him what I really think of him, flipping him the bird in defiant dissenting rage as that spiteful all-powerful, virgin-raping, shit sends me to hell. I hate living AND I hate g od . . Note: Lowercase 'g' on purpose out of intentional disrespect to the mean old bugger... .

    . Why I Am LESS Then Human .  By Ross E F Lombardi. . I like helping people. - I’d help almost anyone I’d even help those who dislike me, for the right reasons And one day, who knows, - You might need my help. I hope that one day, You Do need my help. I Dream that you might one day, Need my help. In the same way, I would go out of my way to help anyone, Anyone else, - that is. I fantasise that one day I am the Only one that can help YOU. . Because know this my ex-wife, My ex-love, - Whether you are, Screaming Crying Drowning Bleeding Dying I will Never help You. . My phone will stay in my pocket - I will walk away. It may cost me my family, my friends, my freedom. I am fully pre-prepared to pay that price for this burning ice. I affirm that potential cost out loud, three times, every morning. Like an evil prayer. - I gain strength from this poison. . There is no redemption for me. No forgiveness for either of us. . For th

. Human beings - be like: . We are here for you... ... until it gets kinda inconvenient, Or at least inconvenient enough to NOT look too bad to others when we selfishly abandon you with some bullshit self-justification self-licensing excuse that we can lie to ourselves about. So, we can pretend that we are a good person, When in fact we are not... Because we human beings all suck! .