. I AM TOO DAM GOOD! By Ross E F Lombardi . My darkness howled in pain, At your light, My own stupidity - I could not fight. . Despite myself, Each sight of you would skip my heart, Every skip of heart would also sting, But “Us” would have been a terrible thing. I could not be near you, only far. - For my darkness can only diminish who you are. . Things kinda all happened how I suspect they would, For the right reasons, - Things happened the way they should. . But of all my regrets, For things, I have never done. I am proud I never wrote you this, - It would have been simply wrong. . I never used THIS skill, Even though I could, For at romantic poetry, - I am Too Dam Good! . To use these words, Would have been unfair. -To let you know how much I care . Each sunset, Despite all my own selfish poisonous shite End of day, I will attempt what’s right. . I forever stand my ground! This is Not an apology! For my feelings end, I needed to double down, I needed a golden-clad guarantee! . Wrong...

. I just worked something out... ...People are thinking that I get self-destructive thoughts because of personal pain, loneliness, and defeat. THIS IS WRONG! I can take the hits, all day, every day and thrive on the fight! ! No! What makes me suicidal is the pain the rest of the world goes through and my feeling overwhelmed and unable to make any difference or help all those countless others that need it. THAT IS WHAT GETS ME! ! . ! How did I finally realize this…? Got banned from a group… The details don’t matter, it’s a long-convoluted story that makes less and less sense to me each day. And because it was a main social group, I spent a lot of time with, Friends and Family etc. were always asking. “Are you ok! Blah blah blah.” “You should give in! Blah blah blah.” “How are you managing?! Blah blah blah.” And there is me thinking… “Do these well-meaning people even know me?” “I rebelled against something – that just makes it a below-average Tuesday!” Just now, 11 pm, On my 51st birth...

. If you realized You would Never love again Be loved again Be held again Hold again Kiss again Be kissed again Or look into eyes as shiny with warmth as your own . How would you keep going? . If you know Tell me how Because somehow I still must find a way to... . .

! Joey B vs. the World #27: It's a Mad World https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Kwzwn6mFqs&authuser=0 My Review: The last story WAS ok -ish BUT This guy is just a professional general all-purpose Douche Bag for a living Like a "Shock Jock" but with No good jokes and Without Any of the sense of whimsy and fun, that a normal "Shock Jock" has. Being all 'laid back' with his expensive jacket acting all 'cool' as an affectation as if he is any better than those that he has the snidey afront to dare criticize. I almost instantly took a dislike to him (or hopefully a dislike to just the character he plays) "Yeh buddy?" "Without those 'freaks' that you so readily slap around with no fear of any personal consequence!" "You'd have no bullshit content for your little show! - would you?!" I won't be watching him ever again if I can possibly help it! (I doubt he'd give a single half-crap - I am obviously no...

. Just out of boredom (not that anyone really cares) This is my "Dancy Cardo Private Living Room Disco, dance till I Drop, Playlist" . https://music.amazon.co.uk/user-playlists/48ad21440e544829a1a39e67ee536993engb?ref=dm_sh_31d6-de00-b184-f5d5-9034a .

. Just posted out of boredom (I do know that anyone really cares) This is my "Slightly heavier 'toning' workout, Use my 'Upset Feelings' to push myself a little bit more - Limb muscle destroying - Playlist" . https://music.amazon.co.uk/user-playlists/45ac3b9966ba44458325a76b0806d9abengb?ref=dm_sh_873b-1a6b-d597-6604-aa12d .

. Rough yet smooth You seem to me, As tenuous and threaded, - you are. As the textured sea, . Fragile and bright Deep and foamy And all opposites in between our two oceans wide. All this, - You are to me. . See this Picture, See this dome of silken cloth. And know what we ought to be, See us in juxtaposition yet melded still, As the ever-textured sea, .

! When your ex-wife, who has gained the whole house, offers you just £30 to look after her dog for the whole weekend, 3 nights, over your own birthday, risking the tenancy agreement validity of your rented flat - so she can go on a pricey holiday... And you insist on getting £50 instead! 🙂 Quote from Her: "Bear in mind I have a dog because you wanted one." 🙂 My response: "Bear in mind you once also had a husband because you wanted one." "Bear in mind you also got a divorce because you wanted one." "A Husband is a bit like a puppy at Xmas" "A husband is supposed to be for life - Not just for Christmas," "I guess we both get to feel disappointed..." "So, Maybe don't start talking about 'who once wanted what'-!" "LOL!" "Because all your 'moral superiority credit' is well and truly all used up now!" 🙂

  ! REMEMBER! ! "IF"  doing  "The right thing"  at any and all costs were easy... ...Then Everyone would do it! ! But it is not easy So  <shrug>  most people do not do it! ! And THIS the very simply the true reason Why the world IS as bad - - As it IS! !

  ! A SUPER FUN SOCIAL NORMS FACT!  AND  MY TOP TIP!   :) ! A SUPER FUN SOCIAL NORMS FACT! ! Apparently...  Shrugging your shoulders and simply saying "It is what it is" Is so much more socially acceptable than screaming into someone's face ! "HELP ME!" "I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN!" "AND I CAN NOT SEE ANY WAY OUT!" ! Because when anyone asks how you are - They are just being polite ! MY TOP TIP! Remember! - No matter what anyone says... Never foolishly forget! . NO ONE ELSE EVER REALLY Cares! !

 . Always dissent . Always defy . Always... . Against ALL . https://tiktok.com/@rat_lombot/video/7226107043499871494?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7226106527299962395 . OR . https://youtu.be/a7K_bolQ_OY .