FAT By Ross E F Lombardi  . Some people are fat, Because they hate themselves. . Some people are thin, Because they hate themselves. . Some people take drink and drugs, Because they hate themselves. . Some people live a life of discipline and self-denial. Because they hate themselves. . Some people are cruel to others. Because they hate themselves. . Some people put up with too much of  other people's shit, Because they hate themselves. . Some people chase some form of success, Because they hate themselves, And have something to prove. . Some people give up. Because they hate themselves. And feel there is nothing more they can do. . Far too many people make excuses, Pretend and deny that they do not hate themselves. When in fact they do. . Far too many people admit the fact. And do all the usual self-destructive crap, That far too many of us do. . But good or bad. Right or wrong. Self-aware or delude...

. . SALT WALL BURNING. By Ross E F Lombardi  WIP . On this wall. This wall of Salburn, Of This town of Salburn by the Sea. . On this wall. Where the woman who once loved me, Once waited, Once waited here for me. . In this damned wall, This wall of pain. This Salty Burn by an acidic memory Sea. . My imagination haunts me. As she now holds another man, Another man in her arms. A man who is not me. . My self-flagellating cruel mind will, Rip my heart and soul. Tears a tear from eye. A constant gut-repeated punch, That will not let be. . For I know. No one now, Will ever mourn, Or ever wait again, Wait again for me  .

. JUST GO! By Ross E F Lombardi . Life will tell you, Don't dance on an empty dance floor. Really? Just watch me! . Convention demands, You need to be in a group to go clubbing. Really? Just see me! . People will say, You cannot do or say that! Really? Then try and stop me! . Angry voices threaten. If we catch you doing shit, we'll batter you. I shrug, - Giggling. Then catch me! . Those kicking my ribs scream, Stay down you silly bugger! "Nah!" I whisper in sardonic glee  "I don't wanna" . I look in the mirror, And think no one will want this. Well, Prove me wrong and fuck me! . I, tell me, - That, I cannot be loved. So, Tenderly kiss me! . DO NOT - tell me who I am, - Ask me! . In a world that says, Know your place. I say, Fuck You! . Life, People and yourself will tell you lots of things  . Dare - double dare and - triple dare! . Dare to doubt IT! . Yourself, People, and Life will claim a lot of stuff, . Know This! . Almost all of it is Bullshit. .

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. DECLARATION OF WAR! My ex once told me. “You being fat is the biggest threat to our marriage”. She was right. Being fat is why she did not want to touch me. Being fat is why she is now fucking another man. If I am fat, THEN - I cannot be loved. I must become thin to be loved. Calories and Rest are my enemy. I don’t care about being healthy, I want to be loved. I will gain control. I will not let the universe win! I WILL gain the ability to be loved, I WILL get thin, Even if I sacrifice my health to do it! . Other people can be fat. But I am not allowed to be fat. It is only ok to be fat if you are normal AND charming. I can never be normal OR charming. But I can become thin. The world will only accept me if I am thin. .

  . Never fear the tyrant, the bully, the thug, or the serial killer. Never fear the Narcissist or the Sadist For all of these, are at heart, simple creatures. They only want to be feared, and respected, to have power, fame, and wealth. They are just evil humans. Instead, be terrified of the one who is willing to make the hard decisions that no one else is willing to. - including self-sacrifice of reputation, health, life, and honour, without any acknowledgement of their deeds. The ones that cannot be threatened or bribed or negotiated with The ones that care nothing for glory or medals or fame. The one willing to selflessly lose all friends and family and be seen as vile beyond compare, to protect the right secrets. Fear the ones that do not value their own good name! Be truly afraid of the good person who will at the cost of everything, Will always, "Do what is necessary”! "For the greater good" “At any and at all costs” Because THESE ar...

. I fully accept that I may never achieve ever being a "good person" BUT! If I try really, Really, REALLY hard, With a bit of luck, Maybe... ... I can somehow manage not to be a "bad" one! .

. Song Lyrics: “My Love” By Ross E F Lombardi . It’s a cold Wet Morning I’m no longer with you. It’s a cold Wet Morning, My Love. The Sun May be Shining. And the Ice Cream Melting It’s Still a Cold Wet Morning, My Love. . It’s a Hard Lonely Time You’re No Longer with me It’s a Hard Lonely Time, My Love. The Night May Seem Fine, My Feet May Be Dancing, It’s Still a Hard Lonely Pain, My Love. . And though we don’t belong together, And can never be together, I’m Still Going to Miss You, My Love. - I'll never again - Kiss You Never again - Hold you. I’ll Still Forever Miss You, My Love. . The Smile I Make is Fake I’m Just trying to be brave. This Smile I Make I Fake, My Love. And though I laugh and joke, It’s just an act. Inside I’m In tears, My Love. . It’s a Cold Grey Dawn It’s a Dull Grey Morning. It’s a Cold Gey Morning, My Love. And It may be Mid-Day And I might seem ok, It’s Still a cold grey day, My Love . And though We Can Never Be Together And Don’t Belong Together, I am still...

! DAM! There is hard-hitting satire... ...and Then! There is,  HARD AS FUCK HITTING SATIRE! This sketch - Is That second one!  !

 ! "No man wants a woman who..." WTF! "No man"??  HA!  - Like anyone can be a spokesperson for their entire gender!  - That is like saying "No Man likes Butter and Marmite on Whole Wheat Sourdough Bread"  - Or -  "No man likes the colour yellow on a Sunday if the mood is in Sagittarius." - Or -  "No Woman likes Star Wars and Star Trek unless she is a gold star lesbian"  - Such statements are silly nonsense made by silly nonsense people!  - There are documented cases of people falling in romantic love with a concrete paving slab!  - Don't try and tell me that everyone of any gender only likes all the same things in any category!  That is simply not how humans work!  AT ALL!  Even a little bit!  LOL! !

. THIS IS WHY SOCIAL SITUATIONS ARE STRESSFUL! . At a 'Friendly ' polite dinner party, The person sitting opposite, and smiling is probably trying to dismantle your 15 years of built-up career Or Your 20-year marriage behind your back. . - At least when someone is trying to punch or stab you - You KNOW that THEY are telling the truth! . - This is why social situations are hellish and stressful And Violent situations are like 'coming home '! . .

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. Just a thought (From a purely hypothetical fiction writers' perspective - not a real agenda) With all this "Anti-invasive species" dialogue Has it occurred to anyone yet the most destructive and evasive species, of all? The Worst species by far, without exception? The cause of all of nature's problems? The one Species that should be permanently and forever removed from all native environments and natural habitats everywhere? … Is the Homo-Sapiens Species! .

. Personal Smelly Bog Log : 5th Jan 2024 . I became a bit reclusive after the Southfield Pub Middlesbrough told me to leave. This happened before Christmas when I was hoping to do some spoken word stuff at an open mic night. Apparently, Some female member of staff (no idea who) said I "made them uncomfortable" at the last place she worked. That deeply upset me because it paints me as someone I am not. That is Not the sort of person I am. - So, it is either a case of mistaken identity or an act of spite. . So that made me spiral and lose social confidence. . It is pretty much the worst thing/insult you can say to me. . The worst part is that I spent a good few days filled with self-doubt - because that type of person needs to be "executed" and not tolerated to exist. . I find "proportional responses" to men like that, a struggle to maintain. And I am harder on myself than anyone else. So, If “I” = “Being like that”. The math result is not hard. In short, T...