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! Ignore the mess... ...I will sort it later... . I just spent nearly two hours moving my heavy bed, (Which clearly was never meant to be moved in one piece by just one person, so now I am a bit injured...) . Same location, just facing the other direction. It will take me a while to tidy up and put all the stuff I had to pull out, to move the bed, back in place. Which is why there is now a lot of mess for me to sort out later.... ! ? "Why?" "Why do this?" Might you ask? So, Now, the headboard faces the other way. . "Why?" "Why do this?" Might you ask? Because now... . When I sit up in bed, I see the view. When I lie in bed, I see the stars. ! Plus, the back of the headboard, facing the door, has a bit of space to stick some of my small art pictures on.... . . . .

! He punched a wall instead... ! A male "friend" of mine claimed he never hit a woman and instead only punched a wall near her, And this wanker could not understand how this was STILL Scary and Threatening to her! The "Man" could not understand or comprehend how this was STILL Not 'ok'. This person was 'bragging' about hitting the wall instead, As if they deserved some kind of 'gold smiley face' or a 'good boy reward' on their 'lunch box' for making the "Heroic" effort to not hit the woman he was supposed to care about. It could not enter his stupid toddler-style brain, that maybe having a violent reaction of any kind was Not an appropriate response, in any way, shape or form, ! Here's a hint - a man or woman, of any sexuality, SHOULD FEEL SAFER AND MORE SECURE WITH A ROMANTIC PARTNER! NOT the exact opposite of 'Safer and more Secure'! ! I am not a pacifist If it is in your nature to be a fighter, then th...

. Please carefully consider the care needed before getting a Girlfriend. . ...Every year the local pet pound is inundated with abandoned Girlfriends. Because once the novelty wears off And people realize how much feeding and care they need, They get bored of them. . Sadly, many Girlfriends cannot be re-homed And must 'be put to sleep'. . REMEMBER! A Girlfriend should be for life... Not just for Christmas! . And please remember to spay and neuter your Girlfriends! To avoid rogue feral Girlfriends roaming our neighbourhood and streets. Knocking over bins and making a mess! . SIDE NOTE: Boyfriends are not the same as Girlfriends. They may look similar but Boyfriends are significantly more dangerous! Boyfriends need trained specialists handlers and care facilities and should only be in wildlife parks and zoos! If you see or hear of illegal unlicensed or unregistered breeding or ownership of Boyfriends, then contact the authorities immediately, and contact the Dangerous Animals Cont...

. RE: Some galleries who want to charge per submission. . I'm an E6 socio-economic bracket artist. And I get sick of being asked to pay fees just to submit. . Small Fees and commission IF I am selected, I am OK with. But a charge per mere application is Bull Shit. These lot are Not the RCA!! We have no guarantee that you don't just harvest the application money like a Hoover and not even bother to look at the submissions. You are asking for a level of trust that you would need to be a gullible dumb arse to give. . You should know your market and be able to make money from a 405 to 50% commission on sales. . With maybe a 40£ to 50£ handling fee per work to offset expense risks of 'no sale', against some of the running costs. . And these numbers should be MUCH lower if you are Not a top-rated gallery! . If you cannot survive on that model Then maybe you are not competent enough run run a gallery. And you should become an art teacher instead?! . Asking for money per submis...

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 . I speak as someone who dances on an empty dance floor ALONE (while sober). I speak as someone who eats ALONE at a cafe.  .  Yes,  I have the confidence to do these things . But I also fully accept loneliness and merge it with the fibre of my being. . Yes,   I am lonely.   .   But I am also confident enough to keep living my life And at the same time never let me become ever "owned" or hurt again! . Friendship and Love are weaknesses,  I am trying to learn to no longer tolerate, from myself, anymore. .

 . ? "That's Life"? Really? ? Well, If "Life" is the problem? If "Life" is the issue? If "Life" IS indeed "Suffering"? IF "All Life" equals "All Pain"? ? THEN the solution seems darkly obvious to me!! ! Someone, SomeTHING, Somewhere should end the entire world's constant cycle of pain, As an act of divine-driven mercy. ! .

  . Only if, absolutely, necessary for its survival The bear will just kill you and eat you. - While the smiling man will rape you for weeks on end, FOR FUN! Destroy and dismantle your body and personality and enjoy doing it. …And still, calls himself a "Hero"! Even IF you survive the ordeal part of you will be dead forever! - You’d have to be an idiot to choose Man over Bear! . . "What I hate most about being single" "Is how loneliness warps My perceptions and tries to turn Me into a sleaze predator creepy man!" .

. Here is a little bit of oversharing Of my gross stupidity... . ... Back when I was married. For the last year or more of that marriage, I slept on the couch. Despite how uncomfortable it was. It was too distressing to wake up next to someone I loved and not be able to reach out to them. Because they did not want me to ever touch them. (In my opinion, She felt like this because I was fat.) . But that's not the stupid part. . The stupid part is that it is THIS! . It is over a year later since the divorce She now loves someone else. Yet despite this... . ... When, I am sometimes stupid enough to still miss her. I sleep on the couch in my flat. Instead of the bed. Despite how uncomfortable it is. So, I don't miss her as much. . Is there ANYTHING, or ANYONE as pathetic as I am! . Guess what? I'll be sleeping on my couch tonight. Because I am a Total Fucking Idiot! - Who can't get his own stupid arse feelings in order! . . I am annoyed at myself and my lack of progress. I h...

. AGAIN.  A song.  By Ross Lombardi . I feel the pain Shuffling under my skin I want to know Were you end and I begin . And I know  This is so Pathetic that I can't win I feel the death  Of a good part of me inside . . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . Shuffling Shuffling Shuffling under my skin . . I feel the need  Creeping in my heart again I want to know And end to this beating pain . And I know This is so Creepy of me again . I feel the pain  Shuffling under my skin . . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . Creeping Creeping Creeping in my heart . . Feel the want Of hearing your voice again I want to smell The taste of your hair again . And I know This is so SO - Wrong of me to feel . I feel the need. Creeping in my heart again . . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice again . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice again . Hearing Hearing Hearing your voice ag...

! The Animus and the Yang. By Ross E F Lombardi . (a straight man) . I am a straight man who has a problem with all other straight men. I am not a bigot as such, Or maybe I am, I am not totally sure… …But there is definitely a bias against us all. We are a needed poison but never the cure. . If someone calls me a “Good Man” It feels like an oxymoron. The male energy is a slaughtering weapon, A bloody knife. Or Gun, The male energy is just yet another murdered wife. . If they call me “Good” It feels like an impossible lie! The male energy or Yang is only a hot white flame, A bright shining darkness in me that makes me sad. A burning destruction, And nothing but bad. . Every straight man here has dreamt and is dreaming even as I speak. Of harming another. -….And I as stand here reporting this, - Probably of harming me. Every straight man here not only knows what I say is true. But is eager to prove it. Because that is what we are. Harming others is what we do. . If they call me a “Man” I...

. Spammed This Ad on someone else paid space. (as I often do) The WORST bit is I committed a gross misogynistic moral crime against an ex. And this 'person' is focused instead on how impropriate leaping on the back of her paid Ad is?! . I may be a horrible person but at least I own it. . Amanda Heath's values on the other hand are just totally fucked up! . So much for "Sisterhood" !! . . . . .

. Title: "Young Woman With Glass Of Wine" . Size A3 . First created - Back When I was in my 20s. This old picture of mine was once something very special to me. Now it is just another product to sell. - To anyone with 20 pounds (plus 5 pounds post and packing) (NOTE: Physical purchase does not include digital reproduction rights.) The picture is of my now ex-wife back when she was Susan Chapman (now Susan Lombardi). She posed for it before we were married. . I openly admit that this is an act of childish spite. - and I simply feel far too crushed and utterly defeated to care. . "Sometimes you fight the darkness…" <shrug> “…Sometimes the darkness wins…” "…Sometimes you let the darkness win…." “…And sometimes you give the darkness a big hug and welcome it as an old friend”. . . I crossed a line today . To destroy a part of me that was once "good" . And I'm feeling surprisingly ok about it. . .