. "Just for very silly, dark shits and giggles" I grinningly present. . The 'Ross R E F Lombardi' wakes up at 3am with horrifically bad dreams, giving his version, of the "Hypothetical Trolly Problem Solution (Sans caffeine)," . Because faith in the 'humanity' does not exist after yet another 3 am nightmare! . .

  . . A sponsored Marketing Department is trying to tell me that Fans don't want to build mechanics in the next Fallout game. Really??! It is a narrative that is being over-pushed, …to the point of becoming suspicious! What I think is really happening here is this: IT IS The Game Producers that don't want a build mechanic. Not the fans! And it is The Game Producers who have instructed PR and Marketing to try and convince the world that customers don't want a Build Mechanic. Guess what? It is gaslighting, "Handling"… …and a pile of glowing green Brahmin Dung! It stinks to 'all low hell' of 'Deathclaw Rectum'! It sounds like Mayor McDonough Talking to us. . Look at the sheer number of Build Items, world-space and other Settlement mods. Hell, look at other games such as "Sims 4”! Look at the amount of extra time and effort poured into selling the building mechanic as a feature in "Starfield"! . I...

. It is not wise or safe to show MYSELF too much kindness. . I have done And are capable of some terrible things. Illegal, sadistic, brutal, evil things... I keep to a strict set of personal rules for a good reason, for the sake of others. I am far less than fully human,  I am a mere gross thing with a mask.  So, I deserve the occasional mental kicking. To keep my inner monster in line and keep other people safe. So, in my singular case, do not criticize the harsh often cruel discipline I enforce on myself. I can put my inner self in a box and scream - while my outer self coldly and methodically dismantles another helpless fellow human being, (even someone I personally know) - When I I feel the need to. (A real and valid person should be unable to do that.) It is not wise or safe to show the creature crawling at the back of my skull too much kindness. . .

! ! TOP TIP: - Then date a man (or woman or any human being in general) who is deep in the further end of the mental divergent spectrum... People on the more extreme end of the cognitive divergent spectrum struggle with both deception and deceiving others! - And they see their personal ethics (such as 'fidelity', "IF" that is one of their rules - ask them what their rules are first, In case they do not follow that one.) as absolutes! (Rather than ethics being mere options to give up on when it becomes less convenient!) ! PS. Of course, YOU MUST KNOW That the engineering cost of this is that they often have little or no money or success. Because they would not lie for a boss to a customer or a supplier. Their ethics (right or wrong) make them stand against perceived corruption, And THIS in turn often gets them sacked and also makes them effectively unemployable! - Constantly lying and deceiving with ease is a normal person's "special power". ! So, you can...

 . I AM CONFUSED. IF YOU DON’T NEED ANYONE? THEN WHY ARE YOU ON A DATING SITE? . As part of my efforts to date in my fifties… I am often putting a lot of futile effort into conversations with prospective partners that end up going nowhere. I fully admit that I have not got much of anything to offer anyone, No assets, No money, and No future, and my social skills and natural in-person charm level are not just below average but well below zero! All I have is honesty, trust, and love to give. It is not much, but that is all that this package has. I keep finding myself investing futile time and effort with women, (because Mother Nature randomly made me straight,) – who are vehemently, and adamantly saying things, such as. “I don’t need a man; I don’t need anyone”. Or “I don’t want to be in a ‘co-dependent’ relationship”. Or even “I refuse to be owned,” “I am not romantic,” “I don’t believe in love.” Which on the surface seems like a banner of stren...

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! Ignore the mess... ...I will sort it later... . I just spent nearly two hours moving my heavy bed, (Which clearly was never meant to be moved in one piece by just one person, so now I am a bit injured...) . Same location, just facing the other direction. It will take me a while to tidy up and put all the stuff I had to pull out, to move the bed, back in place. Which is why there is now a lot of mess for me to sort out later.... ! ? "Why?" "Why do this?" Might you ask? So, Now, the headboard faces the other way. . "Why?" "Why do this?" Might you ask? Because now... . When I sit up in bed, I see the view. When I lie in bed, I see the stars. ! Plus, the back of the headboard, facing the door, has a bit of space to stick some of my small art pictures on.... . . . .

! He punched a wall instead... ! A male "friend" of mine claimed he never hit a woman and instead only punched a wall near her, And this wanker could not understand how this was STILL Scary and Threatening to her! The "Man" could not understand or comprehend how this was STILL Not 'ok'. This person was 'bragging' about hitting the wall instead, As if they deserved some kind of 'gold smiley face' or a 'good boy reward' on their 'lunch box' for making the "Heroic" effort to not hit the woman he was supposed to care about. It could not enter his stupid toddler-style brain, that maybe having a violent reaction of any kind was Not an appropriate response, in any way, shape or form, ! Here's a hint - a man or woman, of any sexuality, SHOULD FEEL SAFER AND MORE SECURE WITH A ROMANTIC PARTNER! NOT the exact opposite of 'Safer and more Secure'! ! I am not a pacifist If it is in your nature to be a fighter, then th...

. Please carefully consider the care needed before getting a Girlfriend. . ...Every year the local pet pound is inundated with abandoned Girlfriends. Because once the novelty wears off And people realize how much feeding and care they need, They get bored of them. . Sadly, many Girlfriends cannot be re-homed And must 'be put to sleep'. . REMEMBER! A Girlfriend should be for life... Not just for Christmas! . And please remember to spay and neuter your Girlfriends! To avoid rogue feral Girlfriends roaming our neighbourhood and streets. Knocking over bins and making a mess! . SIDE NOTE: Boyfriends are not the same as Girlfriends. They may look similar but Boyfriends are significantly more dangerous! Boyfriends need trained specialists handlers and care facilities and should only be in wildlife parks and zoos! If you see or hear of illegal unlicensed or unregistered breeding or ownership of Boyfriends, then contact the authorities immediately, and contact the Dangerous Animals Cont...

. RE: Some galleries who want to charge per submission. . I'm an E6 socio-economic bracket artist. And I get sick of being asked to pay fees just to submit. . Small Fees and commission IF I am selected, I am OK with. But a charge per mere application is Bull Shit. These lot are Not the RCA!! We have no guarantee that you don't just harvest the application money like a Hoover and not even bother to look at the submissions. You are asking for a level of trust that you would need to be a gullible dumb arse to give. . You should know your market and be able to make money from a 405 to 50% commission on sales. . With maybe a 40£ to 50£ handling fee per work to offset expense risks of 'no sale', against some of the running costs. . And these numbers should be MUCH lower if you are Not a top-rated gallery! . If you cannot survive on that model Then maybe you are not competent enough run run a gallery. And you should become an art teacher instead?! . Asking for money per submis...

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 . I speak as someone who dances on an empty dance floor ALONE (while sober). I speak as someone who eats ALONE at a cafe.  .  Yes,  I have the confidence to do these things . But I also fully accept loneliness and merge it with the fibre of my being. . Yes,   I am lonely.   .   But I am also confident enough to keep living my life And at the same time never let me become ever "owned" or hurt again! . Friendship and Love are weaknesses,  I am trying to learn to no longer tolerate, from myself, anymore. .

 . ? "That's Life"? Really? ? Well, If "Life" is the problem? If "Life" is the issue? If "Life" IS indeed "Suffering"? IF "All Life" equals "All Pain"? ? THEN the solution seems darkly obvious to me!! ! Someone, SomeTHING, Somewhere should end the entire world's constant cycle of pain, As an act of divine-driven mercy. ! .

  . Only if, absolutely, necessary for its survival The bear will just kill you and eat you. - While the smiling man will rape you for weeks on end, FOR FUN! Destroy and dismantle your body and personality and enjoy doing it. …And still, calls himself a "Hero"! Even IF you survive the ordeal part of you will be dead forever! - You’d have to be an idiot to choose Man over Bear! . . "What I hate most about being single" "Is how loneliness warps My perceptions and tries to turn Me into a sleaze predator creepy man!" .

. Here is a little bit of oversharing Of my gross stupidity... . ... Back when I was married. For the last year or more of that marriage, I slept on the couch. Despite how uncomfortable it was. It was too distressing to wake up next to someone I loved and not be able to reach out to them. Because they did not want me to ever touch them. (In my opinion, She felt like this because I was fat.) . But that's not the stupid part. . The stupid part is that it is THIS! . It is over a year later since the divorce She now loves someone else. Yet despite this... . ... When, I am sometimes stupid enough to still miss her. I sleep on the couch in my flat. Instead of the bed. Despite how uncomfortable it is. So, I don't miss her as much. . Is there ANYTHING, or ANYONE as pathetic as I am! . Guess what? I'll be sleeping on my couch tonight. Because I am a Total Fucking Idiot! - Who can't get his own stupid arse feelings in order! . . I am annoyed at myself and my lack of progress. I h...