.  What My Genetic Father Taught Me (My genetic father Not my loving stepdad Mr Lombardi.) . My genetic father was the de facto head of his friend group, He was the Alpha Male of his circle. He was the one all the other local men looked up to and wanted to impress. He was loved by all the local women he met... He was feared and semi-worshipped by almost everyone! . - My genetic father taught me these things. - My genetic father taught me why any sensible woman would "choose bear" . He taught me what toxic masculinity was. He taught me rage and violence that has me STILL haunted by nightmares, despite me now being 50 years old. - He taught me all this as a toddler before I could possibly comprehend the horrible things I saw. My first ever memory is of him hitting my mum. - He is the reason that as a straight man - I struggled with self-loathing because I am a straight man. He taught me what monsters we men really are. - Because my frightened terrified toddler self at the bac...

. ..At the end of the day,  I am ONLY ever responsible for MY actions, not other people's - It is not my job or concern if the friends in my life are good people or not! - It is only MY job and concern to make sure I am a good person at any and all cost - In spite of anyone else's decisions. - I only OWN ME! - I have no interest in 'owning' anyone else! .

! RE: FEMALE FREINDS: (A certain male heterosexual perspective) - - IF she never liked you that way and never will! (Note: My only ever ask anyone out "Once Only" GOLDEN RULE to stop any risk of you ever accidentally being a delusional scary creep! - If she ever changes her mind, then it's HER turn to ask YOU out!) Accept the friendship and move on! Friendship is worth something to! . PLUS - Remember for every platonic female friend you have - You gain social access to 3 single friends of theirs and your female platonic friend might (if she is a real friend) tell each of them how great you are! Because she wants all her friends to meet good people and be happy. And you should return the favour with your male friends IF she is looking! Because YOU, if you are a decent human being should also want all YOUR friends to meet good people and be happy. . In my opinion, it is far more important to be a good fellow human FIRST And only your sexuality and gender SECOND! ! Your ...

. FREE ART AND POEM BOOKLET! TO PRINT AT HOME! . . The Background: . I WAS going to try and make little art booklets, Just some pictures and poetry. Nothing fancy, just 5 pages of A4 stacked and then folded to sell for as low as I can get them under 5£ each Being able to sell them for 2£ or 3£ each would have been nice. Unlikely but nice. Something someone might buy as a cheap impulse purchase. I just wanted to make £1 single pound on each thing I sold. Only want to print a few at a time, 2 or 3 at a time at most. Then flip them fairly quickly. I don't want to be rich - I don't need to be rich - I just want just enough to tick over and create more stuff. . However . IT CAN NOT BE DONE! . . THE SIDE RANT: . At the price it costs to make them - I'd have to sell them for over £6 each and NO ONE wants to buy an impulse thing for over £5. . HELL, last time I was selling little picture photos, at Disgraceland Baker St pub, Someone wanted me to kick-drop the price from £2 or 3X f...

. I am learning a bit of classical Greek stuff <shrug> as a bit of a mini side hobby. Not anything serious, like university-level stuff. Just a few random "toe dips" in the water... A bit like 'early dating' of the subject matter to see if there are any sparks there or not. A sort of academic reading version of a few coffees and chats to see if a serious hard dirty fuck with the subject might happen in future. . Honestly, once you can read well enough - You don't need further education - you can just learn stuff yourself by getting hold of the right text. Either as a book, from libraries and charity shops or text online. - Why would I chase "official qualifications" at My age anyway! - When it's only the actual knowledge that I want? That would be like buying an extremely expensive diploma degree COW when I can get the MILK of knowledge and perspective for FREE! (And it can be a wonderful way of pissing off certain arrogant snobby posh people...

. Date a respectable woman?  WHY? Why would I want to do that? . As a Man I am totally (bulletproof, un-seducible) faithful! Why? BECAUSE WAS A MALE ESCORT THAT HAD SO MUCH SEX WITH SO MANY WOMEN when I was much younger - I KNOW the difference all too well between having sex with someone you love and just sex! - So, in an age where trust is hard to find in a future love. - I am far more likely to trust a woman who has already "done it all" over a romance with a so-called-"respectable woman" who might still be curious or still likes an ego boost! - I am far more likely to trust a woman who has been a former sex worker or a porn star. . - When sex outside of love becomes truly dull? When emotionless sex seems just like work and not a novelty anymore? When the only sex you Now want, is Sex with an emotional connection! THEN You Only ever want to be faithful to the person you love. Because anything less is no longer erotic! . - In short - Yes, I would date a woman with...

! THIS MAN WANTS! By Ross E F Lombardi ! "Good Woman?" SCREW THAT! "Bad WOMAN?" HELL NO! "HUMAN WOMAN?" HELL YES! I don't want a "good woman"! - I don't want a "bad woman"! - I do not want an "Ideal", "Concept" or a "Construct"! - I want a real normal, flawed like anyone else, Special in so many secret ways, like everyone else, I want a Female human to fall mutually in love with and spend our lives together with. - A normal woman who farts, swears, and sweats A woman who is a person of mortal clay first and a fake social convention "Lady Mask" second. I don't want a goddess. I don't want a thrall I want an "other half" to make each other whole . I want her best. I want her worst . I want her weak AND I want her strong And I want her all night long . I want her real self And for her to accept me as both weak and strong in return. I want someone to fight with (not a...

! MY ROLEPLAY DM RULE: NO more lazy orphan cliché PC backstories allowed! ! MY DM COMMITMENT! NO more lazy orphan PC backstories allowed! I Will create NPC parents for your character! And they WILL be irritating! . <Player moans endlessly that they desperately want to have a dull cliché orphan backstory...> . Yeah, well,  <shrug>  "If" I am your DM!  - Then your parents are going to turn out to have been alive, all along,  (or be raised back up as intelligent undead)  They are going to find you!  They are going to want to reconnect with you,  And they WILL annoy the hell out of your character for comic effect!  - For MY amusement!  <I did not watch decades of sitcom viewing to waste all that potential inspiration and material!>   - Plus it is an easy bed for story seeds.  . - But no one says you have to be in my game!   . That's your choice!  It's not the law of the land!  "You know where the door...

"! "They used to drink from a hose" !" Oh "HOSE"! That makes far more sense now! They meant "hose" ! I always wondered why local prostitutes were so integral to local water distribution! ...And why there was always such a thirst-quenching prostitute hanging about in their backyard all the time, back when they were just kids. I thought there must be a very common yet unspoken, dark-as-all-hell, family secret! ? - Turns out, I was just mishearing what was being said by my Boomer elders the entire time! !

! Let's just cut the crap - If someone is a fucking racist, incel or homophobic bigot - and they are throwing their crappy 'god slave' agenda around to excuse their evil - Then just hit them - HARD! - Yes, I know this will cause me a Fartbook ban! And quite honestly, I don't give a crap! - I am getting sick of tiptoeing around the feelings of all these right-wing wusses! !

! SOME 52nd BIRTHDAY DRINKS. . “Ok, I know I have not touched alcohol in a while, in order to lose weight” “But it's my 52nd Birthday…!” “I am in the town with a bit more money than usual” “I am in a good mood for once” “And I want to treat myself to a few double rum and cokes” “What could possibly go wrong?” Then 3 am ish – 10 ish or so more hours later… . Cool writing Totally Inappropriate yes, but still cool. . Far too cool to destroy… Far too cool not to show off… . But the really annoying part? The really annoying part is this! . Why can’t I write this well when I am sober? ? ? ? Original text: . . My ex-wife after throwing me away like garbage. (after 30 years) Is now with someone new. Despite the broken heart: I take great spiteful solace that I have a weird point of view about ethics and love, That no one else seems to agree with. . This means that her 'new man' is not as weird as me. This means that her 'new man' will be far mo...

. Random Internet person: "Cheating in 2024 is not physical. sending that friend request, liking their story, hiding text messages. You're already beyond cheating." . ME: I must be old and out of touch... ....Are we just talking about normal conversations about mundane general life stuff and sharing comedy cat memes here? Like any other friend? Or am I missing something here? Because I want to be In a relationship without any needless insecurity on either side. . Random Internet person: "Excuses" . ME: Nope, Married for 30 years and was never unfaithful. Divorced now. Been single for 2 years. My ex-wife is still the last person I kissed. So, as I said, "I must be old and out of touch.." . Even as my marriage fell apart I would not have been unfaithful, Not because of how I felt about her, (she can rot in hell) But instead because of how I feel about myself! - I have too much sense of honour, pride and personal discipline to use a bad relationship as a ...

. I saw a brief story about someone learning something deeply esoteric. . I suddenly felt a familiar creepy cold sensation on a new part of myself opening. . Then I told myself, . "Hang on?" "Before I open a new can of perceptual worms," "Let's apply my own version of Plato's 3 Sleeves vs. Rumours." "But this time altered for little figurative golden bumble bees." . "One: will this new revelation make me happy?" . "Well, no," my spirit said. . "Ok" "Fair enough, personal happiness is not the most important thing anyway" "Two: will this new knowledge make others happy?" . "No" replied my higher self "It won't" . "Ok, then" "Three: will this 'greater insight' help people?" (Because making people happy and helping them are often not the same thing.) . "Again, no" my deeper self-admitted. . "So you want to unlock a new part o...

. THEY WANT US TO HATE EACH OTHER! . But who are "they"? "They" are largely (but not completely) NOT some conspiracy, or secret world government order. "They" are mostly (but not completely) NOT some level of World Bank or a bunch of evil CEOs. "THEY" are NOT the demons of hell or wicked spirits from beyond. . - "THEY" are something else - "THEY" are something much worse! So much worse! Something FAR more powerful! Something NASTIER, that makes Angels, Devils and Demons tread lightly. The Scariest Power in the Multiverse! Something that makes satan cry with fear and that makes god sweat with worry. . "THEY"! . - "THEY, are instead, the parts within us who feel insecure and who 'match in time' to fit in. - "THEY" are the lazy part of us that don't ask inconvenient questions. - "THEY" are the cowardly parts of us that are too scared to defend others. - "THEY, are instead, the ...

 . In a moment of weakness I was stupid enough to join the eHarmony dating site Now I am stuck paying £13 On contract. Until the 19th of July 2026. I am a Total Fucking Idiot! . It is NOT eHarmony’s fault, That I am a totally undatable toilet of a subhuman being. You can’t make scrambled eggs with dog shit No matter how fancy your algorithms are! . .

. “Hawk Tuah girl” A Ross E F Lombardi parody, Using the tune "Uptown Girl" by Billy Joel. . ooooo . Hawk Tuah girl She’s been living in her Hawk Tuah world I bet she never had to try I bet her momma told her exactly why . I’m pissed off the Hawk Tuah girl She’s been living in her Hawk Tuah world She just took the chance while she can And now I am stuck as a jealous man Thats what I am . And when she saw it And took the chance that she could And she used it Just as anyone would . Being a creative's tough Just because - I’m not as good - As a Hawk Tuah girl . I’ve seen her in her Hawk Tuah world Getting all of this success. While my life’s is a big hot mess . She made a choice . oooooo . Hawk Tuah girl You know I can’t compete with that girl But maybe - If reality kicks in I'll understand what kind of fool, I've been And just give in. . And while I work And make art all the time And I write stuff And sometimes it rhymes . Being a creative's tough But she got t...

. "...on the dance floor." By Ross E F Lombardi . I need to dance sometimes. But the reasons why are never seen. . I do not dance to find a date. If I like some woman, Then it will be because of a cool connecting conversation, Not just because we met on some dance floor. . I do not dance because I think that I am good at dancing. What anyone else thinks of my dancing is not my problem. ...Or at least... ...It should not be... . I dance to fight... But not in the way you might think... . I am always fighting on the dance floor. No one else is harmed, No bouncers involved No cops called Alone or in a crowd, I am still dancing alone. . But not dancing. Fighting. Fighting on the dance floor against a thug. A thug no one else can perceive. . I am fighting on the dance floor. Not just fighting. I am fighting For My Life on the dance floor. Against the ass hole that is trying to kill me. . Dancing is my weapon. If I lose - I get murdered. If I lose I die. . Dodging the sadness. Bloc...

! The Philippa Foot Trolly Ethical Dilemma SOLVED! . Two tracks One has five people on and the trolly will hit and kill them all. The other track has only one person on and YOU can switch the tracks! Not switching the tracks lets five people die! However... Switching the track saves five lives but YOU have killed someone! . . MY VIEW: . EASY! Switch the track . - Morally, Inaction is still a decision that you have made. . Deciding NOT to act makes you responsible and guilty for 4 extra deaths than there could have been! . - Sometimes you must make the hard call that others will not, at any and all costs. . - AND then you must not shirk from either the internal self-inflicted cost of your own nightmares OR of the external harsh judgement of the world at large. You have to do what is right AND then pay all the debts due! ! . The ethical dilemma is ignoring the fact that Inaction  (Eg keeping your head down and not protesting or getting involved in fighting a social injustice)  I...

. What a Random person says. Translation of what they really mean: AND My answer (the polite version): . . What a Random person says. . “You look stupid” “I am only saying this to be nice” “Someone should warn You, that you are just embarrassing yourself” “Why don't you have more respect for yourself than that” . . Translation of what they really mean: . “I don’t like what you are doing” “You are making ME cringe and uncomfortable” “Why don’t you Respect ME and MY opinion of what you are doing!” “I don’t approve” “I think I am cool and that you should want to impress me.” “I feel you should respect and obey me and my authority.” “CONFORM!” . . My answer (the polite version): . “It's not ME that I do not respect” “I have plenty of self-respect” “It is You and your opinions that I have absolutely No respect or regard for.” “Because I don’t think you are ‘cool’ –“ “You are not my leader” “I am not your follower” “I don’t need your approval or for you to like me” “Your cringe issue...