. Doing what is right is NOT fun! By Ross E F Lombardi. . . ...And the deviant-angel said to him. .      "She is single again, now...." It drooled...      "And when you see her..." It grinned,      "Your belly still flutters"      "Your heart still skips a beat"      "Why don't you ask her out?" . And the defeated and broken man replied. .      "Because she might say yes,"      "Because when I think of what she's been through,"      "It fills me with a cold deadly rage"      "It makes me want to harm the sort of men who do such terrible things"      "And that very same rage is why we can never be"      "The last thing she needs is another angry male"      "She needs a healer and gentle pacifist golden soul"      "And that can never be me"      "If doing what was right was easy" ...

. IT IS HELL OUT HERE! By Ross E F Lombardi. . I get real tired of fancying women who don't fancy me. . I get real tired of women fancying me who I do not fancy. . I am tired of the flirting and of being flirted with. . I am tired of the gossip, the second guessing, third and forth guessing. The charm offensives. The fake outs. The game's and of the truths.  . I an tired of both being alone and tired of trying to meet someone. . I am so sick and tired of this chaotic gladiatorial romantic pit. . So tired of it all. . All the drama. It is not fun. . So sick of it  . I don't miss my ex at all. Not anymore. Not even a bit... . ...But Dam! I DO sure as all holy hell, miss this... . I DO so miss being owned... ... By someone. . ...I DO miss being married!!! .

 . I cannot believe it is not... ...OBVIOUS! . .

. LA USA Vs Redcar - Some Extrapolated Notes From Hearsay: . Redcar NE UK: Cold, Wet, lacklustre food, Fairly safe, Rude but honest People, But going down the drain - Pretty much the exact opposite of LA USA: Which in contrast is... Warm, has Nicer Weather, has Lovely Food, is Dangerous to live in, has Fake People, And is already as far close to hell on earth as you can get without needing a joint Terra/Hades passport and an infernal-grade pitchfork. .

 - Rat Lombot (Ross E F Lombardi) changing the words of... - Thomas Builds-the-Fire, Smoke Signals (Sherman Alexie) - ...to better suit his reality. . "SHOULD we forgive our 'genetic' fathers?  Maybe when we stop having nightmares.  Do we forgive our fathers for scaring us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for ScarRing us with expected rage, or making us dead inside because there never seemed to be any gentleness there at all?  Do we forgive our fathers for harming our mothers, or for swearing revenge on our mothers? Or threatening, or hurting, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of terror or brutality? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or hitting? For shutting of mouths or the growl through gritted teeth? For never allowing speaking, or never being merciful?  Do we forgive our fathers in our grave, or in theirs? Or in their suffering, Killing the wife-beating bastard Or Not killing the wife-beating bastard. If we forgive ...

  It says 'a little something' about someone  'IF'  They consider "being emotional"   To somehow be 'a bad thing' Loving someone IS being emotional! That IS the whole point of being in love! . Making a counter-argument to almost every "relationship" advice dime store guru on all social media -  . All of them make every romantic relationship seem as if they are some kind of competition to win.  . "How to Control Your Man"  Or "How to Control Your Woman"  I call Bullshit!  - That is NOT what love is!  And I feel someone has to speak out and say it! . Controle??!! Why is it a contest?! Why the need to control? At all? If you love someone then you DO NOT try and control them! If someone loves you then they will NOT want to control you! - IF you love each other then you DO NOT try and control each other - IT Should be you And them Vs everyone else! - Not you Vs them! - .

. Why I can be a bit "Spammy" at times... . I know: It is a common complaint; But A ) I don't really know or understand how the whole share thing really works, - not really. and B ) - This is all I have. It is my only option. I have to put myself out there somehow. I have not got adequate professional connections to just rest and hope things happen. I do not have an art degree. I have not done an art residency. I have to be "a bit spammy" and market and push myself aggressively. Or I will just fade into the background and be forgotten. (Trying to leaver myself into the art world aggressively is also why I keep my prices so 'self harmingly' low. Because if I am without adequate connections my only other option is to embarrassingly undercut everyone else to piss some people off very slightly.) . - My back is to the wall - The odds are stacked ridiculously high against me, (more so than for other artists,) ( = I would not bet my own fiver on me! - It woul...

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A reason to be creative - anyway - to Push anyway - no matter what! - . There are higher roads than that of 'my ego' to take. Sunshine blown up my ass is lovely - but it is the wrong reason to do anything. The reason should be instead, Because of that unrelenting fire in my blood. (The thing that denies me any rest or peace) Because that unrelenting fire in my blood, demands it of my spirit, body, and soul. I should do it because I need to. I should do it because, in essence, I have no choice! .

. Going Out By Ross e f Lombardi . . I am going to an art gallery thing this afternoon, But I do not want to. . I am going to a karaoke thing in Middlesbrough Town tonight, But I do not want to. . I will talk to people tonight But I do not want to. . What I want to do is... Hide, Hide in bed and pretend the world does not exist. Hide in the blankets - and in sadness - and in myself. But I will not! . I will make myself eat, Make myself shower, Make myself shave, Make myself go out, . I do not want to try and be charming. But I will. . I do not want to try and be friendly. But I will. . I do not want to try and 'flirt' and 'put myself out there' But I will. . I will force myself to live and get a life, Whether I want to or not. . No one is going to give me a "new life" There is no "new life" Fairy godmother, that just hands "new lives" out. I have to go out and make a "new life" from scratch. Or ...

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. Will I give up my rage? "NO!" "Yes", There ARE just two choices! Hate or tears. . Hating is empowering! Crying makes You a victim! . "No", there are no nuances! "No", there is no acceptance! There is just energy, entropy, loss and eventual death. . Life IS pain, anyone who tries to tell you otherwise is trying to sell you something. . And my pain is the One thing that is truly mine, The One thing that no one can ever steal from me, take from me or that will ever leave me. It is a constant in a world where no one can be truly trusted, and everyone will eventually abandon or betray you. I can believe in hate more than anything or anyone else. So, "NO" I will Not be giving it up for a mere 'pat on the back', a 'hug' and some 'trite advice'. . My hate is MINE! All mine! Mine alone Forever. .

. I hate my Ex. I hate Her Soooo very, Very, VERY much!!!!!! . Why Should You Hate Your EX? Because when in pain... Hating an 'Ex' is empowering! While Crying for Them just makes You a victim! .

! IF WOMEN FIND DANGEROUS MEN "HOT" ! Then I quit! - If I have to be ANYTHING like my violent genetic dad - Then I'd rather die alone! - You fucking "normal" human beings make me sick and are not worth hanging around with.... I REFUSE TO BE DANGEROUS! - I Hate you all SOOOO much! (and I fucking hate for god creating all of us shitty humans this way too!) - SCREW BEING A "Good Man" Id rather be a half-decent "Real Human" instead! . Violent people only make you 'the exception' - ...until they don't! . Violence is not right or wrong/good or bad / AND it is NOT glamorous! - it is just is! .- YOU stupid STUPID idiots don't know what real violence IS! Or what you are really wishing for! You Silly! Silly Morons! ! . ! I hate my rage, Hate my violence It calls to me, Hate that I crave to harm others .

. WHY I WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY CANCER SCREENING OR BOTHERING TO SEE A DOCTOR FOR ANY CHECKUPS! . Why would I? Why? To live longer?  HA! I do not enjoy living anyway! - bring the death on! - Seriously? I am 52 years old with no assets, un-employable due to mental illness, living on benefits, Disposable, Ugly inside both and out, Un-dateable, Unlovable and with nothing to offer any woman anyway, With NO future other than loneliness, food banks and counting pennies for the occasional coffee out as a treat. - So, explain to me, IF you can, Why the hell would I ever want to live longer!? I just want to die and meet god - So, I can headbutt the smug bastard in the face and tell him what I really think of him, flipping him the bird in defiant dissenting rage as that spiteful all-powerful, virgin-raping, shit sends me to hell. I hate living AND I hate g od . . Note: Lowercase 'g' on purpose out of intentional disrespect to the mean old bugger... .

    . Why I Am LESS Then Human .  By Ross E F Lombardi. . I like helping people. - I’d help almost anyone I’d even help those who dislike me, for the right reasons And one day, who knows, - You might need my help. I hope that one day, You Do need my help. I Dream that you might one day, Need my help. In the same way, I would go out of my way to help anyone, Anyone else, - that is. I fantasise that one day I am the Only one that can help YOU. . Because know this my ex-wife, My ex-love, - Whether you are, Screaming Crying Drowning Bleeding Dying I will Never help You. . My phone will stay in my pocket - I will walk away. It may cost me my family, my friends, my freedom. I am fully pre-prepared to pay that price for this burning ice. I affirm that potential cost out loud, three times, every morning. Like an evil prayer. - I gain strength from this poison. . There is no redemption for me. No forgiveness for either of us...