. I C U and I C Me.   By Ross e f Lombardi . . Yes, I AM ugly. There is no denying That! . But I see you. I see who you vote for. I see who you like. I see your celebrity culture. I see the music you get to number one. I see your fashions. I see your hit "reality" TV. I see your collective, priorities, cares, values and concerns. I see the political expediencies you accept. I see immoral yet convenient choices you make. I see the unethical self-licencing, the constant excuses and all the self-told lies. I see the suffering you ignore. The fellow human tears you wantingly drink. The children's screams you block out. The world you let die. I see the guilt you do not feel. I see the empathy you are incapable of. . I see you regarding kindness as a weakness, misuse of power as sexy, and ruthlessness as a strength. . I see how innately crap we all are = me included. And I judge the human species as moot. Your opinions are silly and invalid. . The difference between a random pe

. To:   The following parts of 'me' . From: The Internal office of my common sense. / Sensible division. RE: 'Her' . Dear Gut, STOP fluttering when you see 'her' . Dear Heart STOP missing a beat when you spot 'her' from the corner of your eye, . Dear Nerves STOP feeling elated at 'her' distant across-the-room presence, . Get a grip! - You bloody immature total idiot morons. . Signed, Yours sincerely. My adult brain. .

. WE LOST OUT ON BREXIT...  BUT... on a positive note... . Yeh Most of us lost out and life did get worse... . <Shrug> . But on a positive note (for them) Some banking bosses DID manage to avoid new EU controls on the misuse of fractional reserve lending and other new EU banking regulations, checks and balances . So, At least a load of people with too much money and power kept all their power and money.  - And then made a shit load more money and gained even more power on the back of the suffering they caused... . . (Did You REALLY think it was EVER about immigration! Are you really THAT stupid! LOL! You Moron! Those same bosses are laughing at you now! ) . 

. Doing what is right is NOT fun! By Ross E F Lombardi. . . ...And the deviant-angel said to him. .      "She is single again, now...." It drooled...      "And when you see her..." It grinned,      "Your belly still flutters"      "Your heart still skips a beat"      "Why don't you ask her out?" . And the defeated and broken man replied. .      "Because she might say yes,"      "Because when I think of what she's been through,"      "It fills me with a cold deadly rage"      "It makes me want to harm the sort of men who do such terrible things"      "And that very same rage is why we can never be"      "The last thing she needs is another angry male"      "She needs a healer and gentle pacifist golden soul"      "And that can never be me"      "If doing what was right was easy"      "Then everyone would do it"      "If you re

. IT IS HELL OUT HERE! By Ross E F Lombardi. . I get real tired of fancying women who don't fancy me. . I get real tired of women fancying me who I do not fancy. . I am tired of the flirting and of being flirted with. . I am tired of the gossip, the second guessing, third and forth guessing. The charm offensives. The fake outs. The game's and of the truths.  . I an tired of both being alone and tired of trying to meet someone. . I am so sick and tired of this chaotic gladiatorial romantic pit. . So tired of it all. . All the drama. It is not fun. . So sick of it  . I don't miss my ex at all. Not anymore. Not even a bit... . ...But Dam! I DO sure as all holy hell, miss this... . I DO so miss being owned... ... By someone. . ...I DO miss being married!!! .

 . I cannot believe it is not... ...OBVIOUS! . .

. LA USA Vs Redcar - Some Extrapolated Notes From Hearsay: . Redcar NE UK: Cold, Wet, lacklustre food, Fairly safe, Rude but honest People, But going down the drain - Pretty much the exact opposite of LA USA: Which in contrast is... Warm, has Nicer Weather, has Lovely Food, is Dangerous to live in, has Fake People, And is already as far close to hell on earth as you can get without needing a joint Terra/Hades passport and an infernal-grade pitchfork. .

 - Rat Lombot (Ross E F Lombardi) changing the words of... - Thomas Builds-the-Fire, Smoke Signals (Sherman Alexie) - ...to better suit his reality. . "SHOULD we forgive our 'genetic' fathers?  Maybe when we stop having nightmares.  Do we forgive our fathers for scaring us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for ScarRing us with expected rage, or making us dead inside because there never seemed to be any gentleness there at all?  Do we forgive our fathers for harming our mothers, or for swearing revenge on our mothers? Or threatening, or hurting, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of terror or brutality? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or hitting? For shutting of mouths or the growl through gritted teeth? For never allowing speaking, or never being merciful?  Do we forgive our fathers in our grave, or in theirs? Or in their suffering, Killing the wife-beating bastard Or Not killing the wife-beating bastard. If we forgive our fathers

  It says 'a little something' about someone  'IF'  They consider "being emotional"   To somehow be 'a bad thing' Loving someone IS being emotional! That IS the whole point of being in love! . Making a counter-argument to almost every "relationship" advice dime store guru on all social media -  . All of them make every romantic relationship seem as if they are some kind of competition to win.  . "How to Control Your Man"  Or "How to Control Your Woman"  I call Bullshit!  - That is NOT what love is!  And I feel someone has to speak out and say it! . Controle??!! Why is it a contest?! Why the need to control? At all? If you love someone then you DO NOT try and control them! If someone loves you then they will NOT want to control you! - IF you love each other then you DO NOT try and control each other - IT Should be you And them Vs everyone else! - Not you Vs them! - .

. Why I can be a bit "Spammy" at times... . I know: It is a common complaint; But A ) I don't really know or understand how the whole share thing really works, - not really. and B ) - This is all I have. It is my only option. I have to put myself out there somehow. I have not got adequate professional connections to just rest and hope things happen. I do not have an art degree. I have not done an art residency. I have to be "a bit spammy" and market and push myself aggressively. Or I will just fade into the background and be forgotten. (Trying to leaver myself into the art world aggressively is also why I keep my prices so 'self harmingly' low. Because if I am without adequate connections my only other option is to embarrassingly undercut everyone else to piss some people off very slightly.) . - My back is to the wall - The odds are stacked ridiculously high against me, (more so than for other artists,) ( = I would not bet my own fiver on me! - It woul

  . RE: THIS Ross ART and Writing Emailing list:  A Courtesy reminder: .  Removal from My mailing list, if required: - Is available upon a polite request: . . But also, If anyone you know wants to be placed on this same email mailing list. Then just simply get them to email me at this address to let me know... And they will then be included... .

A reason to be creative - anyway - to Push anyway - no matter what! - . There are higher roads than that of 'my ego' to take. Sunshine blown up my ass is lovely - but it is the wrong reason to do anything. The reason should be instead, Because of that unrelenting fire in my blood. (The thing that denies me any rest or peace) Because that unrelenting fire in my blood, demands it of my spirit, body, and soul. I should do it because I need to. I should do it because, in essence, I have no choice! .

. I am going to an art gallery thing this afternoon, But I do not want to. . I am going to a karaoke thing in Middlesbrough Town tonight, But I do not want to. . I will talk to people tonight But I do not want to. . What I want to do is... Hide, Hide in bed and pretend the world does not exist. Hide in the blankets - and in sadness - and in myself. But I will not! . I will make myself eat, Make myself shower, Make myself shave, Make myself go out, . I do not want to try and be charming. But I will. . I do not want to try and be friendly. But I will. . I do not want to try and 'flirt' and 'put myself out there' But I will. . I will force myself to live and get a life, Whether I want to or not. . No one is going to give me a "new life" There is no "new life" Fairy godmother, that just hands "new lives" out. I have to go out and make a "new life" from scratch. Or it simply will not happen. . So, despite what I want to do I am going

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. Will I give up my rage? "NO!" "Yes", There ARE just two choices! Hate or tears. . Hating is empowering! Crying makes You a victim! . "No", there are no nuances! "No", there is no acceptance! There is just energy, entropy, loss and eventual death. . Life IS pain, anyone who tries to tell you otherwise is trying to sell you something. . And my pain is the One thing that is truly mine, The One thing that no one can ever steal from me, take from me or that will ever leave me. It is a constant in a world where no one can be truly trusted, and everyone will eventually abandon or betray you. I can believe in hate more than anything or anyone else. So, "NO" I will Not be giving it up for a mere 'pat on the back', a 'hug' and some 'trite advice'. . My hate is MINE! All mine! Mine alone Forever. .