. . Ok, I know this is in poor taste But I got bored… And in my head, it seemed a bit funnier than it really is at the time…

. Posted on the 29th Jan 2025 . Ross shoots himself in the foot and torches any future opportunities for himself - YET AGAIN! . I have to choose my words carefully, . But I do not think It is entirely appropriate to use money meant to help rejuvenate Middlesbrough after the riots, To be used, To throw some overpriced ego-led "lectures" , ... a 'bit O jobs good'un -' work. - As they attempt to use community groups, - To get around 'sole trader' limitations to access this funding. . The riots were a terrifying traumatic time that left deep scars and a need for renewed compassion and healing. Real people suffered Real people were frightened Real people were hurt Real scars are left! Real wounds are still open and bleeding. . It was Not an 'opportunity' . It was Not a 'lucky break' , for self-entitled divas, to "snatch dat cash!" and "make some quick paper!" . At best? It seems coldly and ruthlessly opportunistic. At worst?...

. TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER! WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! . THE SUICIDE MYTH! - NO ONE ACTUALLY DOES THIS! A poem, By Ross E F Lombardi . NO ONE "Commits Suicide" It is not something someone does It is something that happened to them! . They did not "Commit" an act of self-destruction, They were murdered by their illness! They are a victim. NOT a perpetrator. . When your brain is flooded, against your will, with toxic depressive chemicals. During that time you are not "You" Something being "Real" and something being "True" are not the same things. The terrible feelings ARE REAL - BUT they are NOT TRUE . You truly feel worthless and undeserving of life, and these feelings are REAL, - But they are Not true! You are unable to see the truth because the chemicals flooding your brain, against your will, never let you perceive the truth, - Only feel the pain! . A person does not "commit" an act of "suicide" . They are not to b...

. I can empathize with the powerful,  I can glimpse their pain. . I with nothing and those with the most power in the world have one thing in common. We both hate obeying anyone else. The price of never following, of never taking orders from others is loneliness. . I am lonely because I do not bend or bow or show deference. And neither do they. . But unlike them, as a person with nothing I still have to obey police, shops, and some social crap. ...And this saves me!  . The more you obey and bend the less lonely you are. = As to obey, to be flexible, is to be a real part of the world. . Obedience equals honest popularity and real friendship. Things, levels of belonging and true intimacy that no amount of money or power can buy or force! . We are group animals. To obey,  To serve in some way,  Is to belong. . This is why those leaders who answer to no one, who have absolute control and authority, who have the most fans followers and worshipers. Are the loneliest ones ...

. HELPING OTHERS... . If you only help the people you like and agree with then you are only helping your own ego! You are not responsible for their actions, you are only ever responsible for yours. . - You can't change them but you can define who you choose to be! . Helping the grateful and those who like you is easy However... Helping those who hate you is hard! Helping those you hate is hard! . - Help everyone, Everywhere! All the time! - . . I know violence. My rage is not my friend. My inner violence wants to make me it's bitch.  ...and I won't let it. .

. I WAS ONCE ATTACKED! A poem By Ross E F Lombardi . I was attacked with a metal weapon, By a DJ. But I do not condemn all DJs. . I was hit around the head with a metal weapon, By a bald person. But I do not condemn all bald people. . My blood splattered across the floor, Of a pub. But I do not condemn all pubs. . My attacker wore shoes. But I do not think all people who wear shoes are violent. . My attacker was also black, But that will not turn me into a racist. . The crimes of one does not, - will not, - can never, - Define everyone else in some, pulled out of your arse, category. Just because your little, easily led, mind wants it to, - - Longs and aches for it too. . An asylum seeker killed children. BUT… The crime of one asylum seeker - will not, - can never, - Define the souls of all asylum seekers. Just because your little, easily led, mind wants it to, - - Longs and aches for it too. . The unforgivable evil crimes of one white-led British empire, Who ruthlessly crushed this ...

. Some Obscure Compliments and some of their potential Real Definitions. . HERETIC: Somone who does not care what your church thinks. . WOKE / SNOWFLAKE: Somone who cares far more about others who are in need - Then they do about what some other selfish people think. . FREAK: Someone who does not care about others opinions, about how they choose to look. . TROUBLEMAKER: Somone who dares question an official authority figure. . ARSE HOLE: Somone who dares question an unofficial popular authority figure. . DICK HEAD: Somone who dares disobey an unofficial popular authority figure. . WANKER: Somone who does not care what some unofficial popular authority figure thinks about them. . TWAT: Someone actively, standing up against an unofficial popular authority figure. . LOSER: Someone with less than the insulter: Usually, the insulted is being unjustly punished for daring to disobey an unofficial popular authority figure. . TOTAL LOSER: Someone with less than the insulter: Usually, the insul...

. I NEVER EVER! By Ross E F Lombardi . It has been said by the trite, that.. "You should only be with someone that feels lucky to have you..." . HA,! As if! No one Ever felt that about me! = Ever! . I am Mr 'rebound' Mr 'second choice' or 'third' or 'fourth choice' Mr 'better than nothing' Mr 'Well, No one else is asking Me out' . No one Ever felt 'Lucky' to have me! I am only a person that she will settle for. I'm the 'on sale shelf item'. I have never been any woman's 'first choice' = Ever! . I have never been a wistful memory, I have never been a romantic fantasy. I have never been a bitter-sweet regret. I have never been some woman's ultimate crush. . I have never been the cause of her broken heart, . Now at 52 years old, It's all too late... I now know that I Never will. . . PS And before you ask about my 30-year marriage... I was Never, her first choice. I loved her, But to her, I w...

. . . For those that might need to know, Who know and meet me in person, Not just know me via social media, - - - My Mum, Jackie Lombardi died on the 21st of January 2025 at roughly 12:15 pm. So, for a while. I may not be my 'normal' self. . . . Signed Ross E F Lombardi AKA Rat Lombot Whenever I have defeated the odds Whenever I have been stubborn beyond reason Whenever I held my ground and took the beating instead of being a coward, Whenever I have shown iron will and a refusal to quit long after most others would have given up. Some have rolled their eyes and said, "Typical bloody-minded idiot stubborn man!" But I tell you this now... None of those traits have anything to do with my gender, manhood or because I am male, at all, even a tiny bit. . . . - - - . . . IF I am being strong or tough, When I show a fighter's heart and still get up when others scream, "Stay down you moron!" "Stay the fuck down!" "Or they will destroy you!...

 . A Note To "Me" From "Me" . Dear "Me", . "Suck it up, Princess," "You are lonely." "You will stay lonely." "Nothing much you can do about it" . "If you are suffering at all,"  "Then it is Your fault for being needy and weak-willed!" "Be Stronger! - Dumb Arse!" . "So, Stop being a wuss!" "It is only pain! - You pussy!" "Just brace yourself and grit Your teeth!" . "Toughen up you little shit!" "Stop whining like a little bitch about it and just take it!" . . Signed "Me" . . NOTE: Although I do say this to myself, (more than I should) It is really also a self-criticism, - Because it is this exact same type of toxic macho thinking that makes suicide the leading cause of death in men over 50. - So, yes, while I do say this stuff to myself - I really shouldn't! Really I need to lose the ghost of past male culture and look after ...

. Don't fight the loneliness. Forget trying to solve it! The loneliness is not your enemy. Meld with it, Embrace it. Make the loneliness part of you. Become one with it! . . This was just my poetic way of telling myself, . A Note To "Me" From "Me" . Dear "Me", . "Suck it up, Princess," "You are lonely." "You will stay lonely." "Nothing much you can do about it" . "If you are suffering at all,"  "Then it is Your fault for being needy and weak-willed!" "Be Stronger! - Dumb Arse!" . "So, Stop being a wuss!" "It is only pain! - You pussy!" "Just brace yourself and grit Your teeth!" . "Toughen up you little shit!" "Stop whining like a little bitch about it and just take it!" . . Signed "Me" . . . Twitter version: . Dear Me Suck it up Princess U will stay lonely Nothing much U can do about it If U are suffering Then it is Your fau...

 ! 3-week rule! ! Actually, some of us, (I admit not many of us, but some do) DO Have ethics! ! - For instance, I have a 3-week rule, I would never ask a female friend who has broken up with someone until 3 weeks has passed, To make sure the break-up is genuine and not just a random passionate temporary fight. All couples have problems and it is your duty to support friends as a couple to help them stay together! I certainly would not take advantage of a female friend with a broken heart! - I do not want to get in the way of a friend and their happiness just because they are a woman! ! THREE WEEK RULE! Let's ALL make this a thing! So people can concentrate on being a decent human being first and slave to their egos, sexualities and desires second! !

! MY TWO SUPER HASSLE-CAUSING VIDS OF 2024! . Link to "Get e'm Out Lass, for all to See" https://youtube.com/shorts/Iol6UMpEo-s?si=85LeMmWdY2_6xFbU This anti-sexism video points out how Personal Values and Ethics are more attractive than mere looks. . NOTES: A ) The amount of skin is NOT really any more than you would see at a swimming pool… . B ) Prince, 1988 Lovesexy album (among other male artists) have shown just as much skin in posters and album covers that have been openly shown in family shopping centres all over the world. . C ) My parody video is an attempt at comedy, And is clearly hashtagged #Poetry #Comedy #Humour #Cringe #sexisim #tits I DO NOT see myself as “Sexy” This is NOT some misplaced attempt to seduce anyone. I see myself and a silly flabby ugly bloke who accepts that he looks like human walking garbage pile, and who is shrugging his shoulders and just leaning into it for comic effect. You are supposed to LAUGH at my body, not be offended by it! . . ...

. “IF” Thy Soul Is Left NOT consumed! By Ross E F Lombardi . This is going to seem like yet more religious stoof. But Wait! Like some things, I write, There is a twist to this bit. An end you may not expect - that you will get, But we are not there yet. . The Human soul. Like an apple ripening on the tree. The tarnished soul goes to apple hell, To be crushed and burned and boiled, Turned into poison, Turned into delicious cider for Satan. Such is the fate of the apple not good enough for the high Lord's table. . I know, - I Know! - This is going to seem like yet more preachy stoof. But wait a little bit longer! Like some things, I write, There is a twist to this bit. An end you may not expect - that you will get, But we are not there yet. . The Human soul. Like an apple ripening on the tree. An unblemished soul goes to Apple Heaven, To be in a beautiful fruit bowl. In the Lord's mansion before the golden throne, Presented by the angels before God...

. I meet a surprising amount of people who, for one reason or another, enjoy looking down on someone else - "Too posh" "Too Plebby" "Too Cool" "Not cool enough" "This reason" "That reason" "Some other reason" - The excuses are endless! - And All I can think is... … "...I wonder what that feels like?" "To feel better than someone else?" "It must feel nice!" I wish I could think and convince myself of some half-arsed, pulled-out-of-my-butt, Bullshit to make myself feel superior, better and more confident! I want to have a go! I just can't trick myself into believing that stuff! No matter how hard I try! I just hear the voice at the back of my head saying instead, "Don't be a bloody idiot!" "You know that you are shit!" . I WISH I could be an "elitist condescending pratt" - Just for a little while! - Just to see if it feels as good as it seems! .

A Lack of Reason. By Ross E F Lombardi. . I lack Reason, I lack Any Reason . So, Here is some advice, . Never expect Reasonable behaviour- -From an unreasonable person! ...And ... I warn you all now ...! I am Not a reasonable person! I suffer from a lack of Reason. . Reason? I have none! . No Reason to have a shower. No Reason to wash the dishes. No Reason to brush my teeth. No Reason to change my sheets. . If - My only Reason is my self-respect? If - My only Reason is for myself? If - My only Reason is for me? Then I have nothing! No Reason at all! . Like a reverse Ad for 'Loreal' parody, .... ... "Not a chance-In-hell...!" "...Because I am Not worth it...!" . I suffer from a lack of Reason. Because my Reason dumped my like trash, So, I must be Trash! Because she was never wrong. . My Reason treated Me like garbage. So, I must be Garbage! Because she was always right. . I ...

  ON ROMANCE: If it is not crazy, foolish, idiot, passionate, sacred, romantic love. If it is not REAL! If it is only "comfortable and convenient" Then it is NOT worth it! It is better to be alone instead! . It must be Real OR Nothing! I will NOT compromise on this! .

DEATH TO ALL TYRANTS! . A poem, By Ross E F Lombardi . Death to All Tyrants... And Death to Kings and Queens Death to Dukes and Duchesses’ Death to Counts and Countesses Death to all that serve them Death to all that might become them Death to their entire bloodline Death to all who aspire to be a version of them Death to their supporters Death to their servants Death to the families of their servants Death to their livestock Death to their pets Death to their gardens Death to the keeper of their livestock Death to the keepers of their pets Death to their gardeners Death to all their staff, and anyone who knows any member of their staff. Death to anyone who tries to stop you Death to the family and friends of those who try and stop you. Death to anyone who disagrees with you, Or who is not agreeing emphatically enough! Death to the toxic land, Death to the toxic sky Death to the toxic sea Then toxify the entire environment that was once your enemies And repeat. Death all those too weak...

. THE UNGIVEN TO THE UNFORGIVEN. . In line with the sentimental statement "You never know how much you miss someone until you have something exciting to tell them and they are not there" I GET IT! . I am divorced, I hate my ex-wife. I refuse to ever see or speak to her again - Even IF that means missing the future weddings of my children, OR the future christenings of my grandkids! If she is there - Then I refuse to be there. She will NEVER be forgiven! . BUT! Despite all this, I saw a purse that She would have loved at a market stall for Christmas, It was a black cloth one, with red roses growing through a skull. (but in a pretty way) I even pointed it out as a cool gift idea, for her, to my kids. Knowing that she would have loved that purse, That I could not ever share how cool it was with her, And that I could not give it to her, - (because, I truly forever loath that woman.) - This made me sad It made me both briefly miss Her and mourn the loss of our 30 years together, ....

. What I suspect Tarot cards actually are.... . I don't believe in "Tarot Reading" - But I do suspect that tarot is an obfuscated 'shadow book' that uses coded symbolism instead of text to represent a 'Secret Heretical Judeo-Christian Philosophy'  And that it is a key primary source for certain, once banned, esoteric doctrine. - A way to spread Gnostic-based thought, hidden in plain sight. . But I am a nut case that believes a lot of weird crap after a few bad dreams.... ...So, Maybe you should not read too much into this crazy theory! . No need to "sacrifice any bulls here"! .