. - Hope invites pain, If I can learn, somehow, to "Give up" instead, And make do with the life I have, It might give me peace of mind. - A peace of mind I never had before - If I could, somehow, learn to quit hoping for more, Then, finally, I might be able to learn how to be happy! .

. History repeats.... by . Cheryl Lynn . doSnstoper190u50gla145g79518h9i938mi0aa01gm5ami9i8a608iaim8a · . History repeats....   Cheryl Lynn Writes  . In 1923 Adolf Hitler incited an insurrection against the German government. He was tried, given a slap on the wrist, and became a convicted felon. Despite being treated charitably by the judge, Hitler claimed the trial was political persecution and successfully portrayed himself as a victim of the "corrupt" Social Democrats. Hitler positioned himself as the voice of the "common man," railing against the "elites," cultural "degeneracy," and the establishment, who he all labeled as "Marxists." He claimed the education system was indoctrinating children to hate Germany, and promised to return Germany to greatness. To solidify his base, Hitler masterfully scapegoated minorities for the nation's problems, exploiting societal divisions with an "us vs. them" narrative. Many German...

? Good Narcissist? by Ross E F Lombardi... ? I was thinking about the power that Narcissists have. The power they wield and misuse. ? THERE IS A LOT OF POWER THERE! A LOT! And this got me thinking... IF you learned all these same skills? At least theoretically? This power? Could this weaponized ability be turned around? Could it be used for good? ? Could they be used to heal and help instead of control and damage? Could you utilize these same abilities to empower someone instead of taking their personal power away? Could you use the same tools to build someone's self-confidence that narcissists use to take confidence away? Could you "manipulate" people into feeling hope, trying their best and becoming more independent? ? Can you bring a couple closer together? - Instead of sowing discord? ? Could you give someone more inner strength? And hope? Instead of trying to get a date for yourself? ? Give someone greater freedom through their own higher inner-self revealed? Rather ...

. Chinese TikTok spy questions? #satire #comedy #silly #satirecomedy #spy #china #parinoid #TickTok . https://www.tiktok.com/@rat_lombot/video/7479856558587841814?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7438095144740734497 .

. Note to self: Potential Project. Silver Mouse 13742 . From the 26th of the 3rd month 2025 Till 19th of the 7th Month 2026 . 480 . . Potential Project Silver Mouse 13742 499 . Note: Text made extra small and hard to read on purpose... . Attracted? To me? . Romantically Speaking: They aren't! Being loved is NOT one of my abilities or talents. . I have to learn to come to peace with that if I ever want some shadow of some version of happiness. - I must find a different, better way, of giving my life substance and meaning. Some definition beyond my own identity and mere happiness. . Don't get me wrong! I have a high sex drive and am hellish romantic! . BUT instead of spending the rest of my life feeling lonely and whining like a little bitch about it. I should instead take ownership of who I am and accept the situation instead. . - So, To that end, I am going to wait until my E-Harmoney subscription (that I am stuck with) runs out on the 19th of July 2026, THEN (if I am still sin...

. What does Britain have that America doesn't? : Answer: "Britain has," " figuratively," " America heaving and sweating above our limp body" "while they fill our arse with their toxic diseased corporate system rancid cum" - And obviously, America has not got that! . - As an English Person: I am getting a little sick and tired of the UK being the USA's political prison bitch all the dam time! Can any of our political leaders, please, in any of our main political party's, of ours, pretty please, tell the USA to finally fuck off! . We are NOT some de-facto 51st state of America! .

ROSS New CARTOON: "THE END IS..." Not really meant as a "Work of Art" at all... ...Only Just meant as a silly A3 cartoon for laughs.

! I have My Ticket! ! No turning back now! I am definitely going! !

 . Dead but free . I DO believe in the supernatural, BUT I don't like any of those beings! I don't trust any of them! Not a single religion, pact, faith, spell, prayer, hex, fetish, token, or bit of "fluence" is worth the price you have to pay. And you ALWAYS have to pay eventually! .  - They are all like the worst most brutal loan sharks imaginable but with aethereal stuff! . I'd rather stay the spiritual equivalent of a Homeless person, disenfranchised and outside of the normal supernatural world, but free!  - Even IF that means death comes figurative wintertime! .

Question: If you knew that you could never find love ever again, Would you still want to live??

. I do know god exists, - And "it" is annoying! It is not really "faith", Its knowledge . And as knowledge denies "faith"... I feel overly familiar with "it". . So, It is more of an "over-familiarity invites contempt" situation, rather than a "belief" situation. . - god is like the postman or an annoying traffic warden, just a 'fact of life' to me. - that's why I use a small 'g', . I have enough familiarity with god to feel nothing but contempt for god, . I can't prove it, of course. But I don't need to. That bullshit is your ego-driven issue, not mine. So, you go deal with your own annoying shit. . With god buzzing around me like a constantly irritating, nasty biting, itchy stinging, all-powerful yet spiteful, ghostly spirit insect. I have my own annoying shit to deal with. . There is no way I'm going to kneel to the golden throne and ask anything of that shitty rat bastard or any of his glowy ...

. Non-secular monk? Should I consider the lifestyle of a non-secular gnostic monk? . I already eat mostly beans, brown rice and lentils - unless I'm cooking for others. I already don't eat much meat, so going full vegetarian might be fairly easy. I already spend a lot of time alone. I already barely touch alcohol. I already read a lot and do a lot of meditative calisthenic-style exercises. I already have a deep interest in helping both the community and the world. I already see anger and rage as bad things and care passionately about promoting world peace and universal acceptance. I already have a growing hatred of money and wealth and how it owns both me and how it corrupts this world, and all it touches. I already have a disdain for ego and boastful pride in both myself and others. And I already have a strong sense of right and wrong (compared to most adults who seem to have lost that same sense of righteousness that they had at under 18. - Life seems to have beaten it out of...

. There was a time, I thought, that I might, once have known… This poem is probably By Ross E F Lombardi . Round and round again we go, Where it stops No one knows . I knew a public relations specialist who spin-doctored They bragged, - How good they were at spin But how can I believe them? When they spin to me, - About how good at spin-doctoring they are? . Round and round again we go, Where it stops No one knows . I knew an advertising executive who sold things They bragged about how good they were at selling ideas, But how can I have faith in them? When they are selling me an idea, - About how good they are at selling ideas? . Round and round again they post, Where this stuff sells No one knows . I knew a corrupt politician who manipulated. They boasted about how good they were at manipulating But how can I vote for them? When they manipulate me into believing - What excellent manipulators they are? . Round and round again we elect, Another mere crap opportunist, Not worthy of respe...

Horrible moments of male clarity. By Ross e f Lombardi. . Unfortunately for me, Despite being a 52-year-old male, I have a high sex drive, And being single, this leads to porn. . And while porn serves a purpose, It relieves built-up tension, Very much like the relief you get after blowing your nose, Or letting out a fart that was making you uncomfortable. Gross and messy but also necessary for basic self-management and self-maintenance. I hate that moment of after cum clarity. . That moment when I, then, remember. That despite the dating apps, Despite the effort of getting thinner. That despite going out and trying to be in this world, . That coldly, realistically, statistically, Not just because I'm financially barren, Not just because of how weird I look physically, But because also of how disfigured I am on the inside, How broken,  How scared and damaged in mind and soul, How ugly I am as a person, full of rage, humiliation and failure,  . That This! This! Is all I will eve...

. Horrible moments of male clarity. By Ross e f Lombardi. . Unfortunately for me, Despite being a 52-year-old male, I have a high sex drive, And being single, this leads to porn. . And while porn serves a purpose, It relieves built-up tension, Very much like the relief you get after blowing your nose, Or letting out a fart that was making you uncomfortable. Gross and messy but also necessary for basic self-management and self-maintenance. I hate that moment of after cum clarity. . That moment when I, then, remember. That despite the dating apps, Despite the effort of getting thinner. That despite going out and trying to be in this world, . That coldly, realistically, statistically, Not just because I'm financially barren, Not just because of how weird I look physically, But because also of how disfigured I am on the inside, How broken, How scared and damaged in mind and soul, How ugly I am as a person, full of rage, humiliation and failure, . That This! This! Is all I will ever hav...

What others call "self-loathing" I call instead "moral self-discipline".   It stops the excuses, the delusions, the self-licensing, and guards against narsasim. I'd take what you call "self-loathing" a hundred times over the slightest risk of ever accidentally becoming like either my wife beating dad or like certain other men we all know about. (My genetic dad: Not My namesake Mr Lombardi who is technically my stepdad and who is a good man.) Letting go of that protection seems as stupid, to me, as not wearing a seatbelt on a motorway. Yes, a crash might be unlikely,  But I would not risk it anyway! I'd rather feed myself slowly into a slow-moving rusty wood chipper than become my evil genetic father! So, I am not risking it. I'd rather be unhappy than become a danger to others.

THE MASKED.- My own bullshit exposed! I often say how much I hate macho toxic culture. Then stupidly do or say something toxicly bullshit macho - sometimes in the same bloody sentence. But I AM trying to be better than that. This is hard to write but if I really want a 'safer for women' and less 'toxic male' world. Then I have to bury my pride, lose the ego and make it start with me. So as part of my commitment to. "Ruthlessly and brutally kicking the crap out of myself in public when I fall below my own standards" Let's compare the macho masquerade to the 'beatle on its back' reality. Part 1: The bullshit disguise: I refuse to talk to or be in the same room as my ex Ever again. Even if that means missing the weddings of my children and the christenings of my grandchildren. She will never be forgiven. I will make my final words on my deathbed cursing her name. And if I die before she does - keep her the hell away from my funeral!! Part 2: The har...

. The tiniest win.   By Ross E F Lombardi. . ...And the nasty unpleasant inner voice behind my own eyes whispers in a spiteful tone, "...what have you done today...?" "Did you help anyone?" "Did you make anyone smile?" "Did you change the world?" "Did you waste yet another day of your stupid worthless existence?" "WHAT HAVE YOU ACHIEVED TODAY ROSS?" . All I can do is shrug and reply, "Socks!" "I achieved socks," . .